The Power of Amazing Grace

In that moment of grace,it feels like the door of ‘heaven’ opens up to allow us a glimpse of our sacredness and goodness within.It is a time when we are actually touching the inner chamber of the heart(soul,spirit,God,etc…)This is what is meant by the grace-filled moment.It is when we do not run away from either the profundity of intense pain or wondrous bliss but instead look directly into its compelling mysterious force which could make us act spontaneously with tenderness,softness,gentleness and humble courage.We surrender to the power of letting go(relinquishing sense of control),allowing what is to be will be! Grace usually acts with and in kindness to do something benevolent and beneficial for spiritual evolution and human betterment for self and others.This is truly the most beautiful experience on the stage in the journey to find our True Self!

In humility we might fall to our knees simply by hearing a word such as ‘love’,peace’,’kindness’,’God’and be overwhelmed with gratitude.In these moments,the barriers that we have been so conditioned to barricade the heart with might start its shattering process to allow the heart to break completely open in order to be purified!

We are all being called quietly within,not one human being will be exempted or deprived of this moment of Grace if we allow ourselves to listen attentively away from the noise.

In my experience of Grace, was when I was crying on the plane non-stop during the very long flight from Jeddah,Saudi Arabia back home to Vancouver,Canada (Novemeber 1998).I was shamefully feeling like a failure,worthless and broken,lost in life.Yet despite that dark period, I felt a sense of sacred surrendering overwhelming me,asking of me to let go to the goodness, the humility,the whatever I had to face.It felt like I could see a tiny spark of Light at the end of the tunnel.I could feel my heart breaking,tearing apart immensely which I believed was the shattering process of the walls of my heart beginning to crumble down warranting a complete fearless opening to face myself.

It is the power of Grace that gives us the clarity to see the truth that for a long time we had been blinded by and how lost we are in the illusory world.

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Author of the book To Resurrect the True Self

Crisis in the desert calling me to come home!

In 1998,I was going through a terribly depressing time while working at the emergency department at the National Guard Hospital in Jeddah,Saudi Arabia.The weather was scorching hot,even the air-conditioning in the apartment was blowing warm air.It was becoming increasingly unbearable and my restlessness was escalating.It came to a point where I went through a crisis that could have caused me to lose my sanity! I could not sleep for one whole week,not a wink!Each time I tried to lay down in bed, I was so tormented that I had to get up…this went on day and night for seven straight days.I still had to function the 12-hour shift at the emergency department despite the sleep deprivation.

I tried every remedy,sleeping pills,teas,etc.still no sleep came.Maggie, my flatmate was concerned,she suggested,I go see the emergency doctor for an injection to help sleep.So I went after 7 nights and days without sleep,almost at the tip of a breakdown.Before I could see the doctor, the emergency room Head nurse saw me and asked what I was doing at the department.She called me in to her office and told me that the management were happy with me and that there was a possibility of making me clinical nurse instructor of ER.That even frightened me further.I told her that I was not happy and wanted to hand in my resignation,giving one month’s notice.She seemed offended and asked that I leave with immediate effect,so I did!

After going around the hospital getting signatures from various departments in order to get my passport and salary released to buy a ticket back home to Vancouver.After completing all the necessary arrangements for resignation,I went back to the apartment….dead tired,in extreme exhaustion,mentally,emotionally,physically and psychologically depleted of any more energy to function,I fell down immediately to sleep but with a sense of relief of the decision made to leave Saudi with immediate effect.Not long after falling into a deep sleep,I was awakened by a voice clearly calling out my name “Celeste” three times.It sounded so close like as though someone was calling directly into my ear! I woke up immediately to see who it was waking me up! I actually got up and walked round the huge apartment from corner to corner searching for that voice!From that moment,I knew I had to come home to face the unknown and that my life will change radically! A short few days later,I was on the plane,crying all the way on that long flight back home.Underneath all that feeling of distraught was a sense of seeming joy awaiting my arrival Home.

A New Beginning was being prepared as I had to wake up for the fearless journey of Inner Revolution into myself….to listen,to pay loving attention and witness the True Light beckoning from Within!There was no more fighting against Life….I had began learning from what Life wanted to teach and open out for me!

http://www.celestehoedenauthor.com

author of the book To Resurrect the True Self

The Fear of Unknowing

As sentient beings we are affected with fear on a moment to moment basis.Fear makes us anxious,worried,agitated,losing control of our senses,losing sleep,appetite,no zest for living,joylessness,heightens our inner subtle or active aggression,etc.

Fear can either stop and limit our motivation to truly live out our full potential of human life/dignity or it can act as a catalyst to propel us to open doors into phenomenal realms.Which would we allow it to be?

There are too many types of fears we can put our finger on as we live our daily lives.In all honesty,yes, fear is a fact we can complain about or give reasons of its validity as we might say,we fear for our health,we fear the loss of jobs,of income,of our children/granchildren’s future,of the present pandemic,of being found out if we did something wrong,of rejection from loved ones/friends/associates,of what others may think/feel/will do to us,the fear of death,the fear of making decisions,of sharing and being kind, and the many many other fears,however trivial or immense.

In truth fear is about the not knowing(unknown),the losing of control of situations and persons we want attention from,the fear of giving in to something we cannot fight against,of being manipulated(taken advantage of).Fear is an energy that we have kept locked within the self which have subconsciously reminded us of pain and suffering that we do not wish to bear over and over.

Is the fear truly coming from external sources or are we experiencing it from within?

So we allow fear to take over our lives and stop ourselves from living consciously!We allow fear to prevent the freedom of our hearts to exercise and witness courage/fearlessness to be charitable/benevolent to ourselves and others.Do we allow fear to stop opening doors whereby we can discern,evolve and grow maturely/wisely as a human being on this earthly travels.What do we do to assuage it torments?We spend time observing/being aware of it’s tenacity,be with it, make friends with it,ask of it.Become tender with its energy that wants attention/acceptance and not rejecting its need to enslave.As we observe it without harsh reaction,it becomes an ally and dissipate,we live to open a new door! Nothing is permanent as the Buddha has said!

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The Divinity Within

When we have recognized the Divinity within ourselves,we can truly recognize another.We bow in respect and understanding of ourselves and to the beggar,the thief,the priest and the politician all the same.There is no enemy,who are we ‘fighting’against,who are we judging about,who are we condenming upon,why are we creating divisiveness about my colour and your colour, my religion and your religion,this politician and that priest,this gay or that straight person,this prostitute or that saint?We are all but One in our Divine nature of Love,Compassion, Wisdom and Pure Awareness.And when we look through the eyes of compassion and awareness,we act only with kindness and understanding for each other.

Our True Self

Our True Nature is Love, pure consciousness,goodness, kindness,benevolence and benediction…………but why have we forgotten our True Self?
As long as we live fearfully and convinced by what the illusory,noisy and enticing world indoctrinates unto us, we bypass the beauty within us that is nudging incessantly to awaken us to look within and find the treasures we are to discover and display and share!How can we listen to the call of our own Self?We start the practice of being aware of our own Presence,we watch ourselves,we learn to be present to wanting quiet time to see our preciousness in life,the potential goodness and peacefulness we can offer.Do we hanker and opt to be influenced by the crowd or could we choose to have courageous wisdom to stand up alone and listen to the voice beckoning from Within?Are we to waste our lives in fleeting reveries?

From the roots of evil….there will spring shoots of goodness
Just as surely as there is the darkness of night…it will dawn into the brightness of day
From the terrorism of fear…..there will come forth the Innate protection of strength and courage from within
From the abyss of hatred….there will be stairs leading up to compassion
In the end nothing remains permanent,
all will dissolve in the ocean of Love!
~~~~~~~~~~excerpt from my book  ‘To Resurrect the True Self’ pg.99~~~~

 

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A Heart’s Prayer

To all of us with no separation of culture, religion,
race, or gender; and to all of us who are rich or poor,
happy or sad, educated or uneducated, sick or healthy,
I am one with all and all are one with me.
Within we are the same.

We have a heart with the full capacity to
love, to be of support, and to pray for each other.I pray that we take time to be quiet and listen
to ourselves and our needs spiritually, emotionally,
physically, and mentally.

I pray we be not afraid to ask for what we need for
the good of our spirit and that our hearts may be enriched
with strength, not to be harmed and not to harm.

I pray that we may not feel too vulnerable or weak
to say “I am sorry” or ask forgiveness or forgive with
compassionate understanding.

I pray we strive to find peace and healing in the face
of suffering and pain.

I pray we see the beauty within us and use that
beauty to beautify this world with activities and
creativities of love and peace.

I pray we not look at humility as weakness or
as being losers but instead as having the power and
strength to take the first step to initiate spiritual change.
~~~~~~excerpt from the book To Resurrect the True self, page 135

Over the last few weeks and months,what have we truly witnessed in our lives?Did we see pain and suffering,aggression,hatred and anger,frustrations,anxieties, worries,sickness and perhaps deaths of others,friends,relatives,strangers,maybe people we don’ like?What importance have we been giving so much adulation,attention,focus upon? The world was and is still drawing our energies and human goodness focusing greatly on the political scene and pandemic.Do we not feel tired and drained of suffering itself? What do we truly want or how can we truly find peace in exchange for all the confusion and chaos we are being disturbed with?Can we not for once retreat/relate into and draw within ourselves, into our own beautiful inner being,walk into our spiritual realm and bring out one innate wondrous attribute to share with others or witness in ourselves?Why are we afraid to raise,wake up and live out that inherent beauteous God,Christ, Krishna, Atman, Buddha,Brahman,Universal Consciousness from within ourselves to promote healing, peace and compassion.Why is it that we are not afraid to speak and behave unkindly, crudely, critically,fearfully,judgmentally and ignorantly?

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What might be our Spiritual Agenda?

What is our spiritual agenda for the day?for now?apart from having a little fun, and carrying out duties,work,chores and other mundane activities.
Could it be the practice of being kind in the face of unkindness?
Could it be making an assertive effort in spending a few minutes time alone to self-reflect,to listen to the heart,to touch the heart?,to rest the mind(learning to meditate)?
Could it be allowing the self to be Present/Aware of intentions,thoughts,actions,reactions,speech/words.
Could it be feeling of gratitude to someone(a stranger,an enemy)to life itself, to a situation,perhaps offering a good deed in thankfulness not only to whomever that made you feel good but reaching out into the unknown to witness that True Self of charity coming from within.
And it could be more noble agendas that the creative heart wants to be opened up to,not only in giving,but in being not afraid to receive goodness from others(without having any motive to mistrust,without further expectations,or misunderstandings or being doubtful about).

Worldly distractions provide a platform to forget the True Self.
Spiritual endeavours,provide the connection of remembrance of our True self.

 

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