Do we Care for Ourselves?

In true wisdom of caring for oneself,is when we begin to ‘wake up’to question our human existence and purpose,when we can put forth this question…”who am I truly?” .

It is when we start to become conscious of our participation in all actions of living and ask truly….”what am I learning/gaining from doing what I am doing?”Caring for oneself becomes authentic when we start taking an interest in self-inquiry,moving slowly away from people,things and situations that no longer fulfill inner satisfaction,human growth and spiritual maturity.

To care is when we begin the need for quiet restful time and space,when we seek out knowledge from teachers of truth and search for answers that have been buried too deep within the self.To truly care for ourselves is when we make an effort to be truthful in saying that we don’t know what we are looking for but yet giving ourselves a chance to do something extra-ordinary, different,courageous,motivational and radical(sweetly shocking to others) apart from everyday mundane,customary,unfavourable, irrelevent(addictive)actions.

It is a time when we give ourselves top-priority to witness selflessness in the true act of wisdom.It is a moment when we realize we want to be a ‘better’ human in order to acknowledge our sufferings and not want to be a burden to oneself and others(not especially so to those we say we care for).

We may feel strongly about not loving ourselves or being hardened,bitter,angry,jealous,greedy,selfish,too addicted to various activities and feel that we don’t deserve to care for ourselves and so we justify our recklessness and negligences.We tell ourselves that we cannot change,we rather continue living the life we are so used to(unhappily,disharmoniously?)…but in truth NOW IS THE TIME to Care!And as humans with innate beauteous treasures Within,we CAN be awake and we can start NOW!

This caring could be going on a short retreat(organized or solo,if permitted due to covid restrictions),Joining a group counselling session(via zoom or alone with a therapist),AA/addictions associations,to be open to a spiritual group.

To be inspired to volunteer to give your time and heart in a animal shelter, a soup kitchen,food bank,any ministry in need of help that speaks to your heart’s call.

To go to the library/bookshops and be open to read self-help/spiritual books,listen to audio/visuals on teachings that speak of working with the human awakening processes/truth/wisdom.

Importantly to strive to become more honest with oneself in cultivating and practiciing kindly and humane conditions for oneself and those around us.

If we do not Care for ourselves,who can,who will?If the others are seeing that we do not care for ourselves,what impressions/teachings are we implying to them?For if we do not care for ourselves,can we say we care for others,can we say we want peace and happiness,can we be the spark to light the torch of Peace and Compassion for humanity?

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Faith as small as a mustard seed

Upon immediate arrival back in Vancouver from Saudi Arabia in November 1998,I went to live temporarily at my mother’s small apartment while she was away.One night in utter despair,fearful and lamenting of my brokenness and helplessness,I turned on the TV,a Christian evangelical program came on offering prayers to anyone who needed it to call the number on the screen.Without hesitation, I called in to ask for prayers.In less than a week,a package arrived(November 16th 1998) from Evangelist Peter Popoff with detailed instructions of what to do with the contents of the package.

There was a small sachet filled with so called ‘holy water’from the Jordan river in Israel.I was asked to pour the water on my head before going to bed that very same night of receivng the package.I was told to put a Bible if I had one under my pillow and to sleep on it and that I will have a dream following all instructions as directed.I was happy to find a Bible on my mother’s bedside table(it was good to know that she kept one always beside her).So I did as all as I was told to do with a child-like simplicity, trust and fervour without any expectations,but probably out of desperation and urgency of my sorry state.

I did have a dream that same night of hearing a voice repeatedly telling me,”have faith as small as a mustard seed.”I got up with a sense of joyful relief!

Then I questioned myself,how can I have faith when everything around and within me have fallen apart.I have lost everything,jobless,financially empty and in big debts,physically gripped in ill-health, mentally/emotionally broken, depressed.I saw myself like a jig-saw puzzle with all the pieces strewn all over the place…where do I begin to pick each piece and be whole again?

FAITH was the key word,to be motivated and deeply convinced,to trust by fearlessness and the drive to do something noble and true,so I knew a place where I would go to find refuge….an empty quiet church!

November the 17th,a significant day…..I arrived at St.Paul’s church,Richmond,BC.standing outside at the main door feeling like an ‘escaped criminal’,I humbly surrendered myself willing to accept anything that I would have to face.I subjected myself to the great unknown as I wanted so badly to quench and feed my parched soul in need of Spiritual food/drink.I came out of church that day to face a different direction,A New Spiritual Beginning…the process of letting go,of dying to my old self and ego,the burning down of a dilapidated house,like the snake shedding its dead skin.For the first time, I was starting to embrace myself and feel the tenderness for all my regrets, mistakes,wasteful/unnecessary sufferings and flaws that I was now witnessing within myself Truthfully!

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Offering of Kindness to oneself first

“That I feed the hungry, forgive an insult, and love my enemy…. these are great virtues. But what if I should discover that the poorest of the beggars and the most impudent of offenders are all within me, and that I stand in need of the alms of my own kindness; that I myself am the enemy who must be loved? What then?”~~~~~~~~ Carl Jung

“one who looks outwards….dreams,one who looks inwards……awakens!”~~~~ Carl Jung

The person most in need of kindness and compassion is oneself.If we ourselves do not awaken from superficial identification with worldly fantasies, egocentric delusions, childishness,immaturity and spiritual lack,how are we to be joyful of our innate beauteous qualities and show genuine kindness to others?

There might be a time when we felt empathy and sadness to see a loved one,friend,others suffering/struggling or battling an illness,in financial difficulty,etc.Perhaps we would be touched to lend a hand,say a kind word, offer prayers,visit with food along or simply feel a quiet compassion within and do nothing.Similarly,we could offer the same sentiments to ourselves by being quiet and holding the self in kindness and tenderness for acknowledging the pain and discomforts that we might/are going through.This practice of holding ourselves in compassion and kindness opens up the path to loving and honouring ourselves and then outwards to others.

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Crisis in the desert calling me to come home!

In 1998,I was going through a terribly depressing time while working at the emergency department at the National Guard Hospital in Jeddah,Saudi Arabia.The weather was scorching hot,even the air-conditioning in the apartment was blowing warm air.It was becoming increasingly unbearable and my restlessness was escalating.It came to a point where I went through a crisis that could have caused me to lose my sanity! I could not sleep for one whole week,not a wink!Each time I tried to lay down in bed, I was so tormented that I had to get up…this went on day and night for seven straight days.I still had to function the 12-hour shift at the emergency department despite the sleep deprivation.

I tried every remedy,sleeping pills,teas,etc.still no sleep came.Maggie, my flatmate was concerned,she suggested,I go see the emergency doctor for an injection to help sleep.So I went after 7 nights and days without sleep,almost at the tip of a breakdown.Before I could see the doctor, the emergency room Head nurse saw me and asked what I was doing at the department.She called me in to her office and told me that the management were happy with me and that there was a possibility of making me clinical nurse instructor of ER.That even frightened me further.I told her that I was not happy and wanted to hand in my resignation,giving one month’s notice.She seemed offended and asked that I leave with immediate effect,so I did!

After going around the hospital getting signatures from various departments in order to get my passport and salary released to buy a ticket back home to Vancouver.After completing all the necessary arrangements for resignation,I went back to the apartment….dead tired,in extreme exhaustion,mentally,emotionally,physically and psychologically depleted of any more energy to function,I fell down immediately to sleep but with a sense of relief of the decision made to leave Saudi with immediate effect.Not long after falling into a deep sleep,I was awakened by a voice clearly calling out my name “Celeste” three times.It sounded so close like as though someone was calling directly into my ear! I woke up immediately to see who it was waking me up! I actually got up and walked round the huge apartment from corner to corner searching for that voice!From that moment,I knew I had to come home to face the unknown and that my life will change radically! A short few days later,I was on the plane,crying all the way on that long flight back home.Underneath all that feeling of distraught was a sense of seeming joy awaiting my arrival Home.

A New Beginning was being prepared as I had to wake up for the fearless journey of Inner Revolution into myself….to listen,to pay loving attention and witness the True Light beckoning from Within!There was no more fighting against Life….I had began learning from what Life wanted to teach and open out for me!

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Discerning the Truth

Deep within the heart, the self,we are all(yes, every single human being irregardless of religion, race, creed,gender,etc.)we are already on the spiritual path,each one is already awake and enlightened and is truly able to practice, to live in the way of truth and unconditional love,to exercise wisdom and peacefulness,to enjoy and rejoice in works of kindness and charity and to be an asset to humanity,to be creators of harmony!

Why do we not experience this truth?

The spirit/the true self is blocked,drowned by the variety of seductive noises of the world,by the hurdles we dare not jump over,the doors of favourable selfless opportunities that we are afraid to open,the taunting pressure of others that threaten the courage of opening to the truth and by the ego-centric desires/attachment to remain in the ‘comfort-zone’of falsehood.Therefore how do we hear the still small voice of Truth calling from Within?

Whose voice are you willing to pay important attention to?The world/others or to your own Truth Within?Are we willing to live in the illusion of ‘false hope’ or the courage to live our lives facing and living in the Truth?

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Opening the Eyes of Consciousness

When I see through the eyes of Love, I see no enemies…

When I see through the eyes of Peace, I learn to forgive and let go of past wrongdoings…

When I see through the eyes of Charity, I cultivate understanding and respect for the helpless and those hurting…

When I see through the eyes of Joy,my Heart flutters with kindness to give comfort and ease…

When I see through the eyes of Humility,I allow myself the courage and strength to be opened to responsibilities instead of blame…

When I see through the eyes of Mercy and Forgiveness,I admit my own mistakes and that of others…

When I see through the eyes of Patience,I come to surrender being in the Moment,to learn and to accept…

When I see through the eyes of Faith and Trust,everything becomes an experience without resistence,denial and defense…

When I see through the eyes of Compassionate Wisdom,I learn to not be fearful to the Truth…

When I see through the eyes of Awareness,I see myself One with the Whole of Creation!

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We are the True Shining Star

We are the Shining Star awaiting to be born in the darkness and silence of night!

In the time of Jesus, there was a Pharisee named Nicodemus who came to Jesus in the night and asked,”how can a man be born when he is old?”Jesus replied,”I tell you the truth,no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is Born again.”~~~~ Gospel of John chapter 3:verse 3 New International Version~~~~~

Silent night,Holy nightAll is calm,all is bright!Sleep in Heavenly Peace!

Within the silence of each our minds and hearts, a sublime revolution is taking place…….the Birth of the Christ/God Consciousness or in Buddhism the Buddha Nature.In this Birth, The True Self,Truth,Wisdom,Clarity and Luminous Awareness become the Bright Shining Star projecting from the depths of our Being out into the world for all to see!We truly rest in Heavenly Peace in the knowledge of our True Nature that awaits to be born anew…

So how are we to be born again as Jesus had said so that we may see that kingdom of God?___

___when we change,transform from the old habituated self/unwholesome life patterns___

___when we die to selfishness/egocentric identification into selflessness and virtuous practices___

___when we awake from unconsciousness(ignorance) into Consciousness(Awareness)

___when we remove the blindfolds of falsehood and fearfulness to courageously live in the Light of Truth___

___when we cease following the crowd and walk through the narrow gate inwardly into the self

There is no other kingdom of Heaven/God(somewhere in the future or destination) but the only one we each carry within ourselves Now in this very moment and can potentially be born right Now to be the Light of Love to offer as our gift to the world!

Spend a silent time with ourselves in sacred wonder!

Peace and positive changes begin with each of us!The world is changing,the world is being blessed with so much gifts and bestowment of graciousness despite all the chaos that is happening and has happened.

Within each of us,if we dare to look deeply and truthfully,we find that we are spiritually evolving…we cannot remain the same, untouched,unmoved or stuck in a negative way permanently.

Every moment truth and goodness are surfacing awaiting for us to act upon.We are the True Bright Shining Star that the world needs for healing and peaceful resolutions….we start with each of us opening up to live in the awareness of love and kindness in our own lives,in our family, in our society,thus permeating and radiating out to the world.

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Present in Love

When Love becomes the only law we follow in deep understanding,wisdom,and courage,we allow the authencity of life to be lived out.This authencity of living is fearless and balanced in facing adversities,hardships,difficulties as well as happy moments.Love is all that we are,have and sustained by in the Presence of Awareness.

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Letting go of the ‘yo-yo’ effect

When we can learn to practice or even try to come to an understanding of the freeing feeling that comes by letting go, to release the need for control of any sort,the clinging tendencies solely to pleasant sensations and ‘high’ moods,Can we come close to simply being present to all states we experience(good and bad alike) in equanimity and not get trapped in a ‘yo-yo’ effect,that up and down moody states that affects our own peacefulness and that of others.We do this by being present and watching ourselves,being mindful of our thoughts,speech, deeds(the habitual and addictive activities that is energy draining and tiresome)and emotional expressions( are we being judmental,critical and condescending of ourselves and others?).

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