Freedom from suffering by Paying Attention

Freedom from suffering by Paying Attention Are we willing to listen,to be attentive?Do we try to listen with the understanding of the loving and wise heart or through the confused,disturbed mind?Do we listen only to those whom we like or told to like and believe in?When we truly listen to the words being said and not by whom is saying it,we may get the true message and meaning that might resonate,comfort and bring forth the innate wisdom within us.Are we ashamed of expressing our true feelings?Do we find ourselves in superficial/worldly chatter constantly which leave us feeling drained and wasteful.Perhaps we could also be shut in within ourselves,unwilling and afraid of sharing inner pains due to vulnerability of being ridiculed,chided,taunted and poked fun at,to be made to feel abnormal and insignificant?

Listening and expressing are vital parts and parcel of our every day living.Do we make that listening and expressing beneficial for our well-being and spiritual growth?We can ask ourselves often in quiet reflections and when probing into our conscience.Very often we may not have someone to truly sit with us to listen and allow us to express ourselves.Most often too we ourselves cannot do the same for others.I believe talking(dialogue) and expressing are important for us as humans to want to be heard and be allowed to release the inner energies that aid in the healing process.When we are given a chance to talk and express feelings openly and sincerely to someone who is willing to listen,we can start hearing and tune-in into ourselves,we can start deep listening to what we are trying to bring out/clear out of our inner being(cathartic) as a way of honouring and starting to be honest with oneself.

Sitting/being with a friend or someone close and trying to honestly talk and listen attentively/deeply can be draining so most times we are unable to share and open up.Fear locks us in the painful realm of our being.The danger of being unable and unwilling to talk and express,we keep ourselves battling inwardly/outwardly in superficiality(from egoic intentions) and pretense(trying to look good perhaps bad).The ongoing bottled aggression/resentments inside ourselves block the freedom to live consciously,in truthful wisdom and with open loving-kindness.Thus we allow anger,hatred,hurts,selfish pursuits and unhealthy habits to prevail.So what do we do?We seek a neutral party/person to listen to us and for us to express.Nowadays its not hard to do that,there are so many paths of accessing help to find some form of relief( a little is better than nothing at all) to release our inner anxieties,worries,heartaches, griefs,fears,problems,depressions and traumatic experiences,etc.We do not have to live with darkness within our being alone!There are the crisis hotline/helpline, any organization eg.alcoholic anoynmous/sexual addiction,church group,a Spiritual teacher,religious person(priest/nun/rabbi/monk),a kindly trustworthy person,a therapist,listening via audio/visual teachings,to self-help talks,etc.When we are creative and sincere with ourselves, the door opens to every form of possibilities!Oftentimes, we think we are ok,we deny that we need any kind of help and keep playing cool, as long as we can get away from facing the truth of our inner conflicts.Yes, I myself utilized many crisis organizations like alcoholics anonymous,seek spiritual counselling with a priest and nun and phone centres,etc.

When I hit rock-bottom in 1998,bankrupt to the bone(debts owing),lost,broken into pieces,spiritually parched,depressed beyond words and with failing health condition……I had only one way to go……..Into and Within Myself! I knew I had no one to talk to,no one who would listen to me with kindness and understanding as everyone was waiting to lash out at me for my own stupidity,stubbornness,wrongdoings and mistakes.Can anyone even imagine my terrors as I came back from nursing in Saudi Arabia in total disaster,I felt like there was nothing left of me!Now I can see that I was slowly dying to the ‘old-self’.I see the truth that intense suffering actually brought me back to Life!

Then I remembered an aquaintance,she was working as a receptionist at my dentist’s office and sometimes we chatted while I waited for the dentist.She told me at one time that she was seeing a good therapist for her relationship problems.I called her up and invited her for sushi dinner.At dinner, I asked for the name and number of the therapist that she was seeing.The first day I met Ardelle(therapist),I must say I was ‘cocky’ and desperate and terribly impatient to be freed from all my sufferings all at once! I told her that I dont want to waste time and needed her to help get rid of my problems.She was the most wonderful therapist that I had worked with. In a calmly manner,she said to me….”you have a choice to choose healing and be free from your sufferings or you can leave and continue to suffer,only you can help yourself”.I felt a hard slap on my face and chose to leave her office in a foolish rage that day.After much thought,I came back to see her and we continued faithfully working so well together 3x a week for one and a half years.I saw every aspect of myself that I had failed to see and acknowledgeI had a good look at every corner of my inner being by expressing and listening to myself open up honestly to Ardelle.

The good and the bad and every dark secret became no more a secret.Ardelle had assisted in helping me pull out the weeds that were destroying the beautiful garden of my heart.In place she helped me plant beautiful flowers simply by listening and supporting and encouraging.In my sessions with her, I had to be thoroughly honest and truthful.With her I was able to express myself fully without being threatened or fearful.She allowed me to be!

Can we find the time to pay attention to ourselves…to listen and to express our inner difficulties as well as triumphs(humbly) in order to be Free from the slavery of unnecessary suffering!

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Do we Care for Ourselves?

In true wisdom of caring for oneself,is when we begin to ‘wake up’to question our human existence and purpose,when we can put forth this question…”who am I truly?” .

It is when we start to become conscious of our participation in all actions of living and ask truly….”what am I learning/gaining from doing what I am doing?”Caring for oneself becomes authentic when we start taking an interest in self-inquiry,moving slowly away from people,things and situations that no longer fulfill inner satisfaction,human growth and spiritual maturity.

To care is when we begin the need for quiet restful time and space,when we seek out knowledge from teachers of truth and search for answers that have been buried too deep within the self.To truly care for ourselves is when we make an effort to be truthful in saying that we don’t know what we are looking for but yet giving ourselves a chance to do something extra-ordinary, different,courageous,motivational and radical(sweetly shocking to others) apart from everyday mundane,customary,unfavourable, irrelevent(addictive)actions.

It is a time when we give ourselves top-priority to witness selflessness in the true act of wisdom.It is a moment when we realize we want to be a ‘better’ human in order to acknowledge our sufferings and not want to be a burden to oneself and others(not especially so to those we say we care for).

We may feel strongly about not loving ourselves or being hardened,bitter,angry,jealous,greedy,selfish,too addicted to various activities and feel that we don’t deserve to care for ourselves and so we justify our recklessness and negligences.We tell ourselves that we cannot change,we rather continue living the life we are so used to(unhappily,disharmoniously?)…but in truth NOW IS THE TIME to Care!And as humans with innate beauteous treasures Within,we CAN be awake and we can start NOW!

This caring could be going on a short retreat(organized or solo,if permitted due to covid restrictions),Joining a group counselling session(via zoom or alone with a therapist),AA/addictions associations,to be open to a spiritual group.

To be inspired to volunteer to give your time and heart in a animal shelter, a soup kitchen,food bank,any ministry in need of help that speaks to your heart’s call.

To go to the library/bookshops and be open to read self-help/spiritual books,listen to audio/visuals on teachings that speak of working with the human awakening processes/truth/wisdom.

Importantly to strive to become more honest with oneself in cultivating and practiciing kindly and humane conditions for oneself and those around us.

If we do not Care for ourselves,who can,who will?If the others are seeing that we do not care for ourselves,what impressions/teachings are we implying to them?For if we do not care for ourselves,can we say we care for others,can we say we want peace and happiness,can we be the spark to light the torch of Peace and Compassion for humanity?

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Flow with the Current of Life(not against it)

When the mind is tired and busy with worries and anxieties and too much unnecessary unpleasant ‘story-telling’…….sit quietly in your own reverent presence,pay attention to the heart and bring it out into the open and it will speak of comfort and tenderness and loving, gentle resonance….listen to it,trust it and become it.In order to end unnecessary suffering,the mind must be disciplined on how to be silent/still and the heart to be unafraid to be left unprotected and opened so to allow all things to be.

When we fight,encourage resentments,argue and be defensive with Life, it is like foolishly wanting to swim against the strongest of current.But when we allow ourselves to flow with the current(letting go of all attachments and clinging),we glide swiftly to become One with the great ocean, with the Universal Consciousness.

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Offering of Kindness to oneself first

“That I feed the hungry, forgive an insult, and love my enemy…. these are great virtues. But what if I should discover that the poorest of the beggars and the most impudent of offenders are all within me, and that I stand in need of the alms of my own kindness; that I myself am the enemy who must be loved? What then?”~~~~~~~~ Carl Jung

“one who looks outwards….dreams,one who looks inwards……awakens!”~~~~ Carl Jung

The person most in need of kindness and compassion is oneself.If we ourselves do not awaken from superficial identification with worldly fantasies, egocentric delusions, childishness,immaturity and spiritual lack,how are we to be joyful of our innate beauteous qualities and show genuine kindness to others?

There might be a time when we felt empathy and sadness to see a loved one,friend,others suffering/struggling or battling an illness,in financial difficulty,etc.Perhaps we would be touched to lend a hand,say a kind word, offer prayers,visit with food along or simply feel a quiet compassion within and do nothing.Similarly,we could offer the same sentiments to ourselves by being quiet and holding the self in kindness and tenderness for acknowledging the pain and discomforts that we might/are going through.This practice of holding ourselves in compassion and kindness opens up the path to loving and honouring ourselves and then outwards to others.

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Grounded in Love

How do we find ourselves reacting when we are feeling down,lonely,miserable,anxious,worried,troubled,despairing,etc.It might be that our first reaction would be to be kept occupied/distracted,pick on, project our disturbed state at others,do something unreasonable/negligent and in various other negative ways.

There is another way,the healing way,which is to stay and be aware/present with the ongoing pain and disturbances.We can acknowledge it and not fight with it,let it become a friend rather than an enemy,embrace it in tenderness and understanding that sorrow has come to ignite the flame of love,compassion,forgiveness,humility and kindness within to act wisely and not escalate the fire of disaster… hatred,anger, bitterness,resentments and selfishness.

As we welcome the pain instead of running away(not wanting to face consequences), the pain and the problem will find its way out eventually as we keep learning to deal and brace ourselves with courage and compassionate wisdom.In the meantime, we do whatever we can to find some comfort and resolution that aid the healing process,it could be to trust,to have faith or to allow yourself to be humbled.

In my spiritual walk, I faced many many adversities and persecutions,being poked fun at, taunted,called names and chided at.It felt like I was walking through a tunnel of fire scorching me from all sides,yet always getting through unscathed by remaining centred on the strength of reminding myself of the Love Within that no one or anything can destroy.Then walking out of the tunnel renewed with a fresh beginning,knowing that being grounded in Love carried me through the difficulties!

In the face of any kind suffering,we can get through with the humility of taking responsibilities,patience and resilience of not blaming(oneself or others), or be carried away in anger, self-hatred resentments,unkindness,become unforgiving,acts of malice and growing cold/hardened.When we stay grounded and be strongly aware of the courage and humble strength and goodness that we are rooted in we become sustained by it and connected to loving actions!

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We are the Light!

We have this tendency to look outwardly…..at others, at situations,at problems,at chaos,etc.Not only do we look outside of ourselves,we make comments,judgments,poke fun,chide,taunt,criticize,etc.All along we have Light within that we forget to turn inwards to switch it On.We have goodness within to share and bring healing.We have joy to bring comfort to others.We have compassion to understand and respect one another.We have Divine wisdom to speak of Truth and kindness.We have Love in Universal solidarity…….why then are we afraid to unblock the hindrances within the self and let the Light shine forth….why are we wasting time looking away from our True Self when we are the Light that can illuminate the darkness!Dba0QpSW4AMBn-3

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Donating proceeds of my book

A warm Hello to all,
I am delighted to share with sincere joy of my intention to donate all proceeds of my book titled ‘To Resurrect the True Self’ to a non-profit organization dear to my heart(for a while now) called The Tibetan Nuns Project www.tnp.org
By buying the book,you will be of help both ways,the young girls,elderly women and people of Tibet/India have a place to stay,food to eat and be spiritually/academically educated,as well as you have a book to hopefully keep you nurtured and nourished in intellectual/spiritual knowledge!
I heartfully thank you all for any support you can provide when you buy any format of my book.I undertake this endeavour not for any egoic purpose but for the intention of being a help to support humanity in any way ,the way that I was supported by the Universal Consciousness during my spiritual journey into healing and Self-Realization.

A Heart’s Prayer

To all of us with no separation of culture, religion,
race, or gender; and to all of us who are rich or poor,
happy or sad, educated or uneducated, sick or healthy,
I am one with all and all are one with me.
Within we are the same.

We have a heart with the full capacity to
love, to be of support, and to pray for each other.I pray that we take time to be quiet and listen
to ourselves and our needs spiritually, emotionally,
physically, and mentally.

I pray we be not afraid to ask for what we need for
the good of our spirit and that our hearts may be enriched
with strength, not to be harmed and not to harm.

I pray that we may not feel too vulnerable or weak
to say “I am sorry” or ask forgiveness or forgive with
compassionate understanding.

I pray we strive to find peace and healing in the face
of suffering and pain.

I pray we see the beauty within us and use that
beauty to beautify this world with activities and
creativities of love and peace.

I pray we not look at humility as weakness or
as being losers but instead as having the power and
strength to take the first step to initiate spiritual change.
~~~~~~excerpt from the book To Resurrect the True self, page 135

Over the last few weeks and months,what have we truly witnessed in our lives?Did we see pain and suffering,aggression,hatred and anger,frustrations,anxieties, worries,sickness and perhaps deaths of others,friends,relatives,strangers,maybe people we don’ like?What importance have we been giving so much adulation,attention,focus upon? The world was and is still drawing our energies and human goodness focusing greatly on the political scene and pandemic.Do we not feel tired and drained of suffering itself? What do we truly want or how can we truly find peace in exchange for all the confusion and chaos we are being disturbed with?Can we not for once retreat/relate into and draw within ourselves, into our own beautiful inner being,walk into our spiritual realm and bring out one innate wondrous attribute to share with others or witness in ourselves?Why are we afraid to raise,wake up and live out that inherent beauteous God,Christ, Krishna, Atman, Buddha,Brahman,Universal Consciousness from within ourselves to promote healing, peace and compassion.Why is it that we are not afraid to speak and behave unkindly, crudely, critically,fearfully,judgmentally and ignorantly?

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What could we understand a little on the Teachings of Jesus

Understanding a little teaching on Jesus not in a religious point of view but on the human sense.
 
The story of Jesus, his teachings and the culmination of deep love he displayed towards the end of his life for his friends who were also known as his disciples as well as the whole human creation,touches me in a very poignant way.It is as though, I have come to know him personally.I can imagine myself being in his company while he was celebrating his last days and leaving the fragrance of loving mercy,tenderness and humility to linger on for all of humanity to savor.What does it mean to have been taught to believe and accept Jesus as a saviour?
 
I have come to fully understand that we cannot simply believe or accept anything that has been taught to us ‘blindly’unless we have diligently discerned,paid attention and deciphered the meaning of the words delivered by any enlightened spiritual Master.Unless we learn to effectively apply the teachings to our own lives and have been tested and tried and experienced deepest grief, heartfelt pain and ecstatic joy without running away(in illusory,temporary escapes).Unless we face all events and consequences to allow every phenomena to teach and transform us positively,we remain saturated only in an external believing status and not rooted inwardly in true experiencing mode.
 
We each have this Conscience within us,we can call it Christ,Buddha or God Consciousness,it is all the same,all spiritual teachers are pointing directly inwards into our human being as a reminder to wake up to our True Self.Each and every one of us human share the same grieving sadness,the same joyful wonders and potential raising of Consciousness to benefit humanity.We need but the courage to allow ourselves to break down layers of barricades that have blocked our hearts to Love fearlessly and quell the turmoil of our confused and erratic states of mind caused by the many distorted views/ideas,voices/teachings the world has ‘indoctrinated’ us with.
 
When we sit in Silence with ourselves we listen to only One Voice,the Voice of Divine Conscience that speak only of Truth and Love(always in and for goodness).There is no separation of religion,race,gender,culture,believer or unbeliever of a God,the poor or the rich,saint or terrorist….we are all One,human race and our One True Religion is Love!
We are all on this journey in life to help each other grow as we should be,to be Kind and Humane.So all generations present and future can enjoy the peacefulness of living conditions.Do we want our children/grandchildren/great-grandchildren and so on,to suffer the devastating and foolish ego-centred/maniacal ways of the illusory world?
 
We can start with ourselves in quiet introspective reflection on what we truly want in Life and of Life for ourselves and for those we say we love/care for.Do we choose selfishness or selflessness to exemplify for others to witness?
 
Lessons to learn
Everything about this man Jesus, whose teachings I have come to know thru the gospels read in church,thru the new testaments written in the bible and movies and stories about his life,has opened up a stirring and revolution within myself,he helped move me to apply and practice his teachings to my everyday life and learning.
When he said that one has to die in order to be born again ….I understood it to be to die to ego(selfishness),to old familiar habituated patterns of living,foolish reveries and addictions….and so I learned to looked deeply into myself to find answers for the truth and make changes,the doing away of unnecessary and wasteful suffering……
When he said…”when someone slaps you on the right cheek,give the left as well”……I learned from him the meaning of humility and not to retaliate,resist and defend the self from wrongful accusations and injustice.Instead,I learned also to check within myself for a chance to ‘wake-up’ to goodness.
When he said…”when someone asks you for your cloak, give your shirt as well”….I learned that he meant it to be being benevolent,kind and understanding/respectful of and to others and not expect anything back when you give…
When he said ….”blessed are the pure of heart for they shall see God”,I have understood that,it is about being honest,sincere and having goodness of intentions in words, thoughts and actions,not trying to fool others or to abuse and take advantage of anyone/anything.And to see God,for me it means to witness our own innate states of beauty,goodness,kindness and truth,our pure luminous conscience and consciousness(awareness).
When he said….”no one lights a lamp and hides it in a jar or under the bed but instead puts in on a stand so that others can see”,I learned that we ourselves must be that light so that others might not live in darkness and be in constant stumbling,falling,hurt and to live in unnecessary suffering.
 
So I allowed him be a teacher of truth, of love and of forgiveness to me;which he taught so prolifically and fearlessly to the people of his time,till today and time eternal.
He walked all over the countryside of Israel during his era joyously, lovingly,teaching and exemplifying mercy/forgiveness,teaching about looking deeply into the self to find love,truth and freedom from suffering.He taught about not looking at the speck of your neighbour’s eye but instead to pull out the log from one’s own eye first.From this significant teaching I had to learn to sit in the company of myself.Painfully,yet slowly, with the knowledge that if I pulled out the ‘log’ in my own eye(Being),I would be ending that which is causing so much pain to myself and outpouring the agony unto others.
 
Jesus himself had to learn how to go inward into himself,to be alone in the desert, to overcome temptations(illusions of the world),to find himself and the truth and to come face to face with his sufferings and divinity.With the knowledge of finding that truth within himself,he felt compelled to allow the compassion within himself to tirelessly spread, teach and share the healing message of love, charity and forgiveness.
 
What does the word ‘Love’mean to us when we say it, when we feel it,when we think about it?Do we really have to know Jesus to know love or do we truly have to sit in quiet reflection to know that we are Love.Jesus and other spiritual Masters are all pointing us into that direction of looking into ourselves to witness it.

Preview of To Resurrect the True Self

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