The Fear of Unknowing

As sentient beings we are affected with fear on a moment to moment basis.Fear makes us anxious,worried,agitated,losing control of our senses,losing sleep,appetite,no zest for living,joylessness,heightens our inner subtle or active aggression,etc.

Fear can either stop and limit our motivation to truly live out our full potential of human life/dignity or it can act as a catalyst to propel us to open doors into phenomenal realms.Which would we allow it to be?

There are too many types of fears we can put our finger on as we live our daily lives.In all honesty,yes, fear is a fact we can complain about or give reasons of its validity as we might say,we fear for our health,we fear the loss of jobs,of income,of our children/granchildren’s future,of the present pandemic,of being found out if we did something wrong,of rejection from loved ones/friends/associates,of what others may think/feel/will do to us,the fear of death,the fear of making decisions,of sharing and being kind, and the many many other fears,however trivial or immense.

In truth fear is about the not knowing(unknown),the losing of control of situations and persons we want attention from,the fear of giving in to something we cannot fight against,of being manipulated(taken advantage of).Fear is an energy that we have kept locked within the self which have subconsciously reminded us of pain and suffering that we do not wish to bear over and over.

Is the fear truly coming from external sources or are we experiencing it from within?

So we allow fear to take over our lives and stop ourselves from living consciously!We allow fear to prevent the freedom of our hearts to exercise and witness courage/fearlessness to be charitable/benevolent to ourselves and others.Do we allow fear to stop opening doors whereby we can discern,evolve and grow maturely/wisely as a human being on this earthly travels.What do we do to assuage it torments?We spend time observing/being aware of it’s tenacity,be with it, make friends with it,ask of it.Become tender with its energy that wants attention/acceptance and not rejecting its need to enslave.As we observe it without harsh reaction,it becomes an ally and dissipate,we live to open a new door! Nothing is permanent as the Buddha has said!

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Waking up to Truth

Most of us have heard this saying…’ignorance is bliss’.It can also mean to be oblivious to be open to the Truth.We tend to be afraid of knowing what is true,the truth that we keep hidden within the recesses of our being,we can call this our ‘dark secrets’.Playing ignorant and pretentious of our lives,this help protect our ‘cushy’lifestyle and keep us safe in our comfort-zones,of people and things and situations we are used to surrounding ourselves with.Most often,these comfort-zones that we hoard no longer serve us meaningfully or give us purposeful living,yet we go on wasting energy pretending to enjoy and be seemingly happy with our lives on the surface.In truth, the undercurrent within us is in turmoil and disturbed.

We need answers,we need comfort,we need knowledge,a direction,a guidance to the truth of our purpose in Life.Yet we dismiss and ignore the very very quiet nudging that beckons us to take stock,to halt and listen,to pay attention,to relax and care for our true needs.We are in truth succumbing to the fear of losses, rejection,more pain and enduring suffering,of changes,of being ridiculed and taunted and of the mysterious Unknown!And there is also the fact and difficult task of ‘how to begin and what to do!’

I faced these dilemmas most of my adult life, knowing quietly that I was intensely suffering,yet not knowing how to deal with it,what to do with the truth of my suffering.The more I struggled with suffering,the more it seemed to follow me and caused me more anger and hatred of myself.I was in fact truly ignorantly looking for love,to be loved and to love!I didn’t realize at the time that Love was already within me and this separation and ignorance caused so more much pain and suffering.How did I begin the waking up to truth?I had to acknowledge and admit firstly that I was indeed suffering and trying hard to suppress its gravity and being dangerous to myself and others.Here being dangerous means that as we unconsciously suffer needlessly,we impose our pain upon others either unknowingly or deliberately to cause suffering in ways of worries, anxieties and distress or even by drastic measures in ways of violence,mental,emotional,sexual abuses and insanity.I had to sincerely surrender the ignorance and seek the help needed to be freed from pain and suffering. I went fervently on a daily basis to sit in reflection of my life in a quiet church and pour my heartaches and foolishness into the unknown.And as I sat, I realized I was delving deeply into my being,witnessing the truth of myself.This endeavour became the start of meditation practices…a true Love affair with myself.This sublime process drew me deeper into myself,seeing all my imperfections, flaws,mistakes,hidden ‘dark secrets’as well as goodness.Instead of judging and churning negative criticism of myself……I started opening up to compassion and forgiveness of myself.Tears flowed profusely in remorse and shame and of knee high buried guilt.All I could do was embrace myself in totality of the truth,freeing/releasing myself of denials and holding on to toxic afflicted energies.

As I meditated,I loved myself for the courage and the truth that I was able to face.And this truth in return sets us all free from unnecessary/wasteful suffering.

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