A true teacher will take one Into reality and not away from reality. Even our so called enemies can teach us the way into the Truth!
When the mind is tired and busy with worries and anxieties and too much unnecessary unpleasant negative ‘story-telling’…….sit quietly in your own reverent presence,pay attention to the heart and bring it forth out into the open.It will speak of comfort and tenderness and loving, gentle resonance….listen to it,trust it and become it.
In order to end unnecessary suffering,the mind must be trained on how to be silent/still in meditation.Allow the heart to be unafraid to be left unprotected to allow all things and situations to be.Keep it continuously OPEN.When we fight and argue and be defensive with Life, it is like foolishly wanting to swim against the strongest of current.But when we allow ourselves to flow with the current(letting go of all attachments and clinging),we glide swiftly to become One with the great ocean, with the Universal Consciousness.
We have this tendency to look outwardly…..at others, at situations,at problems,at chaos,etc.Not only do we look outside of ourselves,we make comments,judgments,poke fun,chide,taunt,criticize,etc.All along we have Light within that we forget to turn inwards to switch it On.We have goodness within to share and bring healing.We have joy to bring comfort to others.We have compassion to understand and respect one another.We have Divine wisdom to speak of Truth and kindness.We have Love in Universal solidarity…….why then are we afraid to unblock the hindrances within the self and let the Light shine forth….why are we wasting time looking away from our True Self when we are the Light that can illuminate the darkness!
Saturdays to me was a truly special day.It was a day, when I devoutly attended Novena(prayers and singing) church services in dedication to the Virgin Mary.As a born and raised Catholic,I was taught that this was an honorable thing to do …to be able to give the Virgin Mary homage, thanks and ask for comfort, blessings and succour.To me the Virgin Mary represented Motherly Love, kindness,warmness,tenderness, mercy and deep understanding.And so I went devotedly most Saturdays(I remember making every effort to do so).I went to ask earnestly despite my still very much being caught up in worldly frenzy,I went in deep reverence to pray for the loving attributes that this Blessed Entity represented.
How do we pray?
In and through my praying experiences,prayer becomes potent when it is short and it is said simply,earnestly and humbly,such as ‘Help me,’Give me strength and courage to go through this painful time,”Thank you,”Help me to face the truth,”Guide me,”May I be safe,”May so and so be safe,”May I find peace,’etc.When a prayer is said and repeated in a fervent,simple and short manner,it becomes a positive direct affirmation to help oneself gain presence,courage,relief,calmness,clarity and insight to face all difficult events.It helps us see and hear within our being of what is being said and why we say it.Simple prayers become transformative.We learn to make subtle changes within ourselves and follow up with positive actions of the words we say.
Therefore it is said that a child’s prayer is powerful due to its purity,simplicity and unadulterated supplication!
~~~~~~~ excerpt from ‘To Resurrect the True Self’ page 131-132 ~~~~~~
There was a special time,a time when my friend Doug and I walked with our hearts on the streets of ‘dangerous’ Downtown East side Vancouver,British Columbia,Canada,spiritually befriending the downtrodden,outcasts of society,prostitutes and drug addicts.I never felt threatened or unsafe or repulsed by the ‘dark activities’going on in that area.Who am I to judge or think that I was a ‘hero’trying to save them.NO! I was not there trying to play saviour or speak of a God or spread religiosity to try to convert them.
I was in fact there to learn from them,to be challenged in real-life learning lessons ……to break my heart open to the terrorizing,painful suffering that I relate with them in a different scenario.Humility was the biggest lesson I had to cherish as it was not easy sometimes to be hurled with obscenities and with their rough,crude and toughened mannerisms.I learned to love sincerely, to hold them, to accept them in whatever state they were in,to laugh and cry and share with them and kiss them and wipe away their tears,allow their tears to flow on my jacket/shirt.Most of them are infected with the Aids/Hiv virus and were scarred with sores and visible infected marks on their bodies.It could be very unsightly to look at,I never saw it as a hindrance to be with them.To look into their eyes and tell them that they are loved and not to be afraid.It was a joyful,fulfilling time when they would run and rush forward to be hugged and held and smiled at,there was a tiny one(Doug and I would call her little Ashu) who simply liked jumping on my back like a little monkey.
There were also disheartening times when they would shun,deny and reject any form of kindly contact.
Despite the subtle chaotic,harmful violence being visibly witnessed through the self inflicted suffering these people are causing to themselves(by way of openly shooting up,overdosing,dealing in drugs,watching the johns and ladies engaging in bargaining for sexual favours,yelling and screaming profanities,the frequent sounds of screeching,deafening ambulance/police sirens) ;I walked through the streets in peaceful and loving expression not of or for their activities but in compassion for their pain and ignorant/wasteful suffering.From witnessing these painful states, I was gaining access into my own self-created and unnecessary sufferings and vowed to purify myself of misery.Suffering helps us to look into suffering and then its up to us to want healing for it.
Once Doug,who remains a dear friend till today,invited his friend a priest(Fr.River) from Seattle,USA to join us in walking on the streets.While walking Fr.River suggested that we have a celebration of Mass right there out on the streets.Both Doug and I were joyous at the idea!So we stopped in front of a McDonald’s fast food joint and bought whatever we could to use,bread for communion host,probably pop in paper cups as wine and we spread paper napkins on the ‘dirty’floor.We sat on the floor in peaceful reverence for that sacred ceremony while chaos was going on right there around us.We gently invited the people on the streets to come join in if they liked to.To our surprise,some did respectfully sit with us to celebrate that lovely,lovely time of meaningful celebration of love on the streets.Fr.River showed courage,sincere fearlessness flexibility,spontaneity,humility,kindness and a true healing/sharing and peaceful spirit in the face of subtle violence and confusion.
As I look at this experience, I envision what the historical Jesus Christ would have done in his time and era as he was going about teaching, sharing and projecting peacefulness in the time of hatred,strife and anger over the Roman rule of his country Jerusalem.Despite violence and plotting against the Romans(Romans against the Jews and vice versa), Jesus taught compassion,charity, kindness,forgiveness and peaceful resolutions…..he taught only to look Within the Self to find the ‘Kingdom of Heaven in there’He did not bother with the chaos going on nor did he encourage anger and hatred.He invited people to find healing within themselves.
So what can we learn from this……do we get influenced by the turmoil going on in the present day world or do we find peace and love and compassion to offer to the pain of the world?
What do we witness,when we look externally,outwardly,away from ourselves?We see the world in chaos which includes the pain and suffering of those we are intimate with,close to,within our family,friends and social circles.Are we being aware of it or do we take it for granted that there is nothing we can do!
Honestly,are we being affected adversely,influenced negatively and drowning quietly,as though struggling against the strong current of confusion,self-doubt,self-limitations,hatred, resentments,anger,fear and depression.
Somehow, we may feel that by engaging and getting caught up with the distractions of the world and standing by helplessly/hopelessly seeing the pain of others it gives us a sense of temporary relief from witnessing our own inner pain.Without us touching and exposing our inner pain……how do we find resolutions for true healing,peaceful states and living in a conducive loving environment?If we first don’t find healing and peace within ourselves,how do we bring,teach,speak and share peace and compassion to and for others?How will the world find healing and peace?We can start with ourselves first,to look honestly within and then we bring that healing out into the world as however little or much.
How beautiful and magnificent it is when a soul wakes up from
deep slumber to listen to the call of its own voice of Truth.Not only does it wake up,it wakes up to wake up the ‘unconsciousness’ of others!
In that moment of grace,it feels like the door of ‘heaven’ opens up to allow us a glimpse of that sacredness,goodness within ourselves.It is a time when we are actually touching the inner chamber of the heart(soul,spirit,God,etc…)This is what is meant by the grace-filled moment.It is when we do not run away from the ‘mystical call’ either through the profundity of intense pain or bliss but instead look directly into its compelling mysterious force which could make us act spontaneously with tenderness/softness/gentleness and humility.We surrender to the power of letting go(relinquishing sense of control),allowing what is to be will be and usually act with and in kindness to do something benevolent and beneficial for spiritual evolution(changes) and human betterment(for self and others).This is truly the most beautiful experience on the beginning stage in the journey to find our True Self!
In humility we might fall to our knees simply by hearing a word such as ‘love’,peace’,’kindness’,’God’and be overwhelmed with gratitude.In these moments,the barriers that we have been so conditioned to barricade the heart with might start its shattering process to allow the heart to break completely open and be purified!
We are all being called quietly within,not one human being will be exempted or deprived of this moment of Grace.
In my experience of Grace, I was crying on the plane non-stop during the very long flight from Jeddah,Saudi Arabia back home to Vancouver,Canada (Novemeber 1998) after an incomplete nursing work assignment contract.I was feeling like a failure,worthless and broken,lost in life.Yet I felt a sense of sacred surrendering overcoming me,letting go to the goodness, the humility,the whatever I had to face,to face it with courage and purposeful strength.I could feel my heart breaking,tearing apart immensely which I believed the shattering process of the walls of my heart beginning to crumble down warranting a complete fearless opening to face myself, my True innate Self(flaws and beauty).
It is the power of Grace that gives us the humble strength and courage to lead us home inward into ourselves,to see the truth that for a long time we had been blinded by and to be found in the wisdom to understand how lost we were in the illusory world.
I am delighted to share with sincere joy of my intention to donate all proceeds of my book titled ‘To Resurrect the True Self’ to a non-profit organization dear to my heart(for a while now) called The Tibetan Nuns Project www.tnp.org
By buying the book,you will be of help both ways,the young girls,elderly women and people of Tibet/India have a place to stay,food to eat and be spiritually/academically educated,as well as you have a book to hopefully keep you nurtured and nourished in intellectual/spiritual knowledge!
I heartfully thank you all for any support you can provide when you buy any format of my book.I undertake this endeavour not for any egoic purpose but for the intention of being a help to support humanity in any way ,the way that I was supported by the Universal Consciousness during my spiritual journey into healing and Self-Realization.
To all of us with no separation of culture, religion,
race, or gender; and to all of us who are rich or poor,
happy or sad, educated or uneducated, sick or healthy, …
I am one with all and all are one with me.
Within we are the same.
love, to be of support, and to pray for each other.I pray that we take time to be quiet and listen
to ourselves and our needs spiritually, emotionally,
physically, and mentally.
I pray we be not afraid to ask for what we need for
the good of our spirit and that our hearts may be enriched
with strength, not to be harmed and not to harm.
I pray that we may not feel too vulnerable or weak
to say “I am sorry” or ask forgiveness or forgive with
I pray we strive to find peace and healing in the face
of suffering and pain.
I pray we see the beauty within us and use that
beauty to beautify this world with activities and
creativities of love and peace.
I pray we not look at humility as weakness or
as being losers but instead as having the power and
strength to take the first step to initiate spiritual change.
~~~~~~excerpt from the book To Resurrect the True self, page 135
Over the last few weeks and months,what have we truly witnessed in our lives?Did we see pain and suffering,aggression,hatred and anger,frustrations,anxieties, worries,sickness and perhaps deaths of others,friends,relatives,strangers,maybe people we don’ like?What importance have we been giving so much adulation,attention,focus upon? The world was and is still drawing our energies and human goodness focusing greatly on the political scene and pandemic.Do we not feel tired and drained of suffering itself? What do we truly want or how can we truly find peace in exchange for all the confusion and chaos we are being disturbed with?Can we not for once retreat/relate into and draw within ourselves, into our own beautiful inner being,walk into our spiritual realm and bring out one innate wondrous attribute to share with others or witness in ourselves?Why are we afraid to raise,wake up and live out that inherent beauteous God,Christ, Krishna, Atman, Buddha,Brahman,Universal Consciousness from within ourselves to promote healing, peace and compassion.Why is it that we are not afraid to speak and behave unkindly, crudely, critically,fearfully,judgmentally and ignorantly?