From Head into the Heart

From Head to the Heart

Saint Augustine of Hippo said….”my soul will not rest till it rests in you Lord”

Most of my life I tried to decipher what these words actually meant and what truth it wanted to speak of.

Because of my own quiet perseverance in search for truth and love,I have come to understand its true meaning after going through long struggles with depression, unhappiness and misery most of my adult life.Like St. Augustine, I was yearning for peace of mind and for my heart to experience love in its deepest/fullest capacity.

Meditation,as I have come to practice and experience firsthand is that ‘spiritual transport’ by which all beings inherently can reach the core of the heart and find true purpose of our lives.The purpose of which is to know who we truly are,to be liberated from wasteful,unnecessary suffering and to be a lamp to help others find their way to peace and truth.

Meditation is a sacred passage by which we travel into ourselves watching our minds while we descend into the heart to find Divine Love there already waiting.By this process we come to know who we truly are empirically(direct experience).No one can bring us into ourselves but ourselves! In other words no one or any entity can save us!All true teachers are there to help point and guide,direct us on the path into the self and not away from truth and our own true nature.

We move esoterically(inwardly) from head to heart in the quietude of meditation.It is a love affair with oneself,in self-inquiry…”who am I truly?’”what do I truly want?”

By devoted sitting/walking meditation practice, we gradually become aware and conscious of our humanness,the mind is being observed and tamed.We mature in slow progression of peacefulness(contentment),understanding the true nature of things,preparing to accept all arising of uncertainties.It is not easy to sit in meditation but it becomes possible and effortless once we understand and are willing to endure it for the sake of wisdom,compassionate and joyful attainments to offer and share for ourselves and with others.

Most of my adult life,I thought living was just one big arena for foolish/selfish fun and play,reveling in reckless/restless activities.In the midst of all those reveries,there was always a deep ache and longing for something more,something fulfilling and meaningful that I hungered for.It was something I could not put a finger on but I knew that all these fun and worldly pursuits were not truly what life should be all about totally and aimlessly. I am not against fun,enjoyment and rest/recreation…but only that no one is hurt or harmed or abused and taken advantage of leading to further suffering.Another pitfall of wanting perpetual fun and happiness is that our senses become deeply attached/addicted to its pleasurable tendencies.Happiness hence becomes a suffering trapped in a tiresome,energy draining cycle,repeated over and over unable to be freed from chasing one desire after another(the mind/psyche sustains no peace).If desires are not met,we become agitated and restless which could lead to subtle or vicious aggression and maliciousness.

The world is out there acting as an assistance usually by the subtle and harsh realities of difficulties,chaos,hardships,challenging people/situations,false/empty offering of happiness/glory/beauty and riches which creates opportunities for us to change directions into one of spiritual conversion/transformation thus leading us to introspect and look within ourselves.

A quote from the Gospel of Matthew chapter 7,verse 13-14 illustrating what Jesus had to say about walking through the narrow road which means inwardly into the self and not blindly following ideologies, hearsays,opinions/beliefs of others(world) through the wide gate and broad road with the many distractions that destroy inner peace and truth.

“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”

~~~~~ Jesus ~~~~~

If inclined to,practice spending a few minutes at a time being in quiet presence to rest the body,mind and soul.To have the right intention of understanding why we need to practice.In order to be opened to peace and loving intentions which bring relief,comfort, to nurture and cultivate wisdom and spiritual maturity.

I write not intending for anyone with any particular religious belief but for everyone as we are all human,yearning to know the truth of ourselves but still not ready or prepared to do so.

Author of To Resurrect the True Self

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Courageous Humility

Courageous Humility

In the true act of courageous humility,the being becomes aware of the log(guilt, fears,faults and negative affictions)) in one’s own eye first thus we can begin to understand the speck(pain and sufferings) seen in another’s eye.

In this process,the devotee chooses to make a courageous effort to pull out that ‘infected’ affected log from its own eye while resonating in compassion for the speck seen in another’s eye.

We all as human beings do suffer.When we see and feel and acknowledge our own suffering,we humbly stop to contain it in the wisdom of not wanting to pour it outwards to inflict pain and annoyances upon others.And this includes the discernment to not be influential in encouraging others to engage in unwholesome activities which does not empower and enhance spiritual healing,growth and humane betterment.For to help bring peace and joy to ourselves, our homes, our environment,to the world,we can mindfully discern to not indulge in meaningless,childish(selfish) and fearful behaviours which only stuns healthy development for ourselves and people we say we care for.

What can we learn from the two criminals who were crucified alongside Jesus on that fateful historical day some two thousand years ago?

The first criminal(the arrogant one),while hanging and dying on the cross mocked Jesus by saying “if you are the son of God,why don’t you come down from the cross and save yourself!”

The second criminal(the humbled one),also in the throes of suffering in pain and close to death on the cross chose the courage to be humble.He chose to defend Jesus,to defend truth and goodness.He spoke quietly to the arrogant man and said……”this man(Jesus) is not a criminal and does not deserve to die like us!”

And Jesus responded to the humble man…..”on this day,you shall be with me in paradise!”

What would suffering allow us to learn from? Humility or Arrogance?

A Christmas Meditation

Generally around the time of Christmas, people develop sensitivities of the heart,a time when most people feel nostalgic, depressed, low in spirit and melancholic…why?Perhaps too many reminders of the way it should be spent with lavish parties and gifts,negative past experiences—missing someone,lost of a loved one,separation,present way of unhappy life situations,being(feeling) alone,the dark,rainy and gloomy weather conditions,the chaotic world, etc.This season too is a time for miracles of the heart to happen,charity and spiritual growth/changes!,During this time,we often speak(sing), hear and see the words LOVE,PEACE,JOY in songs, posters,advertisements,greeting cards,in shopping centres,decorations,etc.

When we lighten and allow the heart to tenderize through whatever we are experiencing in this moment—with thoughtful understanding,kind,loving,forgiving,joyful and humble actions,we can and will enjoy the Christmas season and all its festivities even more meaningfully.We can learn to simply be Present(a present) of peace and joy and thus not get into a knot of attachment to all past reminders.Through this way of loving consciousness,we can wake up without any traces of harsh ‘hangovers’ when the season is over!

My wish and prayer for each one of you,family(near and far),friends and all whom I haven’t seen for a long time and some even I have not met,my wish for you is to be blessed with a Generous Heart and be a witness to the Miracle of Love during this Christmas time. Joyous and Peaceful blessings of the season to all!

Author of To Resurrect the True Self

Who Am I

Who Am I

When we want knowledge of truth,we ask wise questions…and not be perturbed to hear the answers!

Do you dare sit courageously and perserveringly and ask these 2 pertinent questions of your own self..

“who am I?”

“what do I truly want?”

We go deep into the Heart for the answers and not from the level of the mind.

Can we ask…am I of a partticular sect of religion, a man, a woman, a mother/father,am I doctor, a nurse, a businessman,rich/not so rich,good/bad,etc…are we truly anything we identify with??keep asking to go within the self in quiet reflection.

Do we honestly want to be only selfishly happy, loved and at peace OR …keep asking…

Author of To Resurrect the True Self

The Warrior Without an Enemy

The Warrior without an Enemy

I Am that warrior who fights without a sword,

I Am that warrior who is protected without a shield,

I Am that warrior who sees no enemies around me,

I Am that warrior whose purpose is to slay the ‘demons’within me,

I Am that warrior who champions fearlessly for Love,without prize or crown,

I Am that warrior who knows suffering and who seeks only to spread awareness of its wastefulness!

Author of ‘To Resurrect the True self’

Forgiving Power

Forgiving Power

In order to facilitate inner forgiveness for ourselves

or toward others, we need the strength and courage to

be humble, to allow the heart’s capacity to fully open,

and to bring down all barriers that had blocked the

heart from tenderizing, from loving, and from being

charitable. Humility aids the heart to soften, to be

pliable, to yield toward gentleness, and to be open to

learn from past mistakes.

In December 1998, while still in the beginning

stage of my journey of spiritual revelations, I used to

occasionally spend time with Sister Marilyn of the Grey

Nun Congregation. One time, I poured out some of my

past transgressions to her. She then asked me straight on

if I was willing to put down the heavy load that I was

carrying. Without hesitation, I said a firm “YES.” She

then asked if I would like to make a personal confession

with her friend, a monsignor at the chancery office of

the Holy Rosary Cathedral in Vancouver. I humbly and

wholeheartedly agreed.

I remembered the day, it was

sometime in late December 1998, and I must have spent

more than an hour in confession with Monsignor Smith.

It was to be my last Catholic rite of confession. I was

crying throughout the confessional time with heartfelt

shame and deep remorse for my past actions. Monsignor

was very empathetic and comforting toward me. He

pointed to a framed picture on the wall depicting a

scene showing Jesus throwing a life-saving buoy to a

drowning man in a perilous sea. I remembered feeling

free and relieved upon looking at the picture; it was a

knowing inside of me that was saying, “I am turning

my back toward the past and starting anew.” I walked

out of his office and into the Vancouver December rain.

I felt washed clean and joyful, and the peace gave me

the courage to say, “I want to make amends and never

to be that same person again.”

~~~~ excerpt from my book “To Resurrect the True Self”,page 168-169 ~~~~

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Author of ‘To Resurrect the True Self’

To be Spiritually Free

What it means to be Free? It means to be authentic/true to yourself,to live in open-minded/hearted willingness and acceptance in every circumstance,to love and embrace the friend and the foe without any trace of attachments/clinging,resentment,anger or animosity.To be able to give fearlessly without wanting or expecting anything back,feeling the abundance of lacking in nothing,of having everything sufficient in simplicity and humility.It is when we become courageous to take responsibilities of all actions instead of wielding blame and fault-finding tactics.

“Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

~~~ Jesus in the gospel of Matthew chapter 11:verse 29~~~~

To Live spontaneously in this Moment!To not be living or identifying with regrets, guilts,mistakes,miseries,pleasures and fears of the past nor be burdened with the worries,anxieties,trepidation and unknown outcomes of the future!

Being Humble

To be genuinely humble,we allow ourselves the courage and willingness to be open to learn wisely,to accept and simply be with whatever is present and happening right Now.We can be resilient to life’s challenges and adverse situations and know that we are giving ourselves the chance of learning to not resist,defend,deny and avoid running away from the truth.Humility is an antidote to pride/arrogance(ego-centirc motivations).Pride and arrogance block the path to peaceful,joyful and loving endeavours and living.

Melting the Heart with Humility

I began my humble service to the hungry,homeless,poor and the less fortunate in a soup kitchen after seeing a poster in St.Paul’s church Richmond asking for volunteers.This poster came to my attention after heartfelt praying in St.Paul’s on New Years eve 1998.In that prayer time,I asked earnestly to be of use,to do something beautiful for God as like in a book by Malcolm Mudggeridge titled ‘Something beautiful for God,a life of Mother Teresa of Calcutta which I had read before.

My prayers were answered immediately….’The Door is Open’needing volunteers to serve the poor and needy,I saw this poster ,posted on the main door of the church as I walked out.I went home to respond to that call and was invited to come in the door.That day was January 2nd 1999.Thereafter, many,many more spiritual doors started to open as I faithfully journeyed deeper and deeper into myself.

I remembered that particular day,driving from my home in Richmond to the Door is Open Catholic charities centre in Vancouver which took about 35-40minutes.While driving,I felt such a deep noble humility swelling up within my being,not in a egoic way but like an extraordinary sacred simple act of transformation was about to happen.My life slowly changed spiritually and radically through this courageous humble action.I walked through that door(in the picture below) and my life was never the same again(the old self was beginning to die,the snake has started to shed its unhealthy old skin).

I was there early as told to help prepare the sandwiches for the lunch crowd.The soup was prepared by some generous,kind women who I had come to know.As soon as the meal preparation was ready, someone opened the door to the hungry crowd.I remember feeling like a servant ready to be of service not to the master but to the poor.I have never done something so humbling like this before. As they lined up one by one, I was behind the counter serving each one a bowl of hot soup and sandwhiches with a simple minded innocence and purity of heart(tears run down my cheeks as I write this to see myself relive this moment)!

At that moment of serving, I lost my sense of ego,that self-centred,delusion of grandeur feeling and the neediness that I carried wastefully for so long in my being.I was allowing humility to take over and allow me the strength to surrender and let go of wrongdoings, mistakes,and regrets of the past.I was carefully transitioning from one of the world into the spirit(inwards into the self).Something more mystically powerful was taking place.As I served, I looked at each one from my heart through my eyes into their downcast,sad and lonely eyes.It felt like the penetrating rays of the divine,piercing through my eyes into my heart and melting away the hard-packed ice that I have built blocking the pathway of my heart.I saw myself,softening in compassion and forgiveness to see so much suffering and sadness,of mine and others.

At that point, I realized that we are all one is our suffering and that we can do something by understanding, respecting and most importantly to heal and care for ourselves first in order to reach out to others to share forgiveness, peace and love.When we do something beautiful and kind,we feel beautiful and respectful of ourselves,we reclaim our worthiness and self-esteem.

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