To Love Thyself

I saw a posting which says…”I just want to Love myself…again”. And what a true,honest and wise declaration and acknowledgment.And this is a silent unconscious aspiration of all beings.This wish to love oneself can come in the form of a longing to be loved,to want to love someone(sometimes obsessively),hankering for happiness and satisfaction in life,searching for something unknown,a feeling of empty,meaningless existence,the joylessness of depression,jealousy and selfishness.Even a deep sense of joyous delight and pleasure can evoke a desire of wanting to love oneself.

We often hear words telling us to pray, love,to forgive, to do good, to be kind,to be happy, to be nice and pleasing,to not hurt,to not worry,to not think too much,to be happy.Then we tell ourselves,we already love,we are happy,we don’t care what others are doing, we are not doing anything bad,we are nice and please others too much,we are the ones who are hurt,we say that we are not thinking too much or worrying,etc.In other words we play victim of denial,defence and demand/expecting love from external sources.The ‘call’to come home into the core of our being is happening every moment of our lives,non-stop!

How are we to hear its still,quiet voice when we are busy looking externally for love,craving attention(to be liked and to feel significant) and being seduced by a myriad of worldly attractions in all sorts of forms/ways.The world tells us to be kept busy with muti-tasking.We are disturbed by people and situations and get caught playing ignorant games of the mind.We become identified with running constant negative commentaries in the already tired mind.So we believe whatever the busy and negative mind is chattering/nattering to us…and it mostly makes us feel bad/harsh of ourselves.The mind keeps us outside of ourselves,it prevents the entry Within the self into the Heart(home is where the heart is,where love lives).

On the other hand when we practice and learn to tame,calm and quiet the mind,it becomes our guide and provides the ‘ladder’down into the Heart(True Self)…..where we will be empowered, embraced and engulfed with Joy,Wisdom and Compassion,thus we come to know/meet Love(God) and will love ourselves/others unconditionally.The unconscious ‘war’ within the self is ended,Truth is revealed…….we come to the True state of Conscious Living!Are we willing and courageous to sit by ourselves,to face whatever Truth about ourselves(guilts,shames,fears and flaws,goodness and kindness,etc.)in order to let it all go and Be who we already are….Love itself!

When the mind is silenced,the Heart speaks!

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Overwhelming Afflictions

When we are overwhelmed by disturbing strong affictive emotions such as jealousy,fearfulness,anger,hatred and addictive instigation,we can always practice the mindfulness to pause and be honest,to ponder and take a look deeply into seeing if whatever that is tormenting us in the moment is good,right and will bring us any happiness or peace!

Will we want to be trapped by its toxicity and continue to do harm to ourselves and others.

Yes sometimes affictions can very powerful energies to disarm and deal with…..all we need is not be hard, judgmental and critical or even think we deserve more punishment on top of the already tumultous state we are experiencing.We need the Light of awareness to mitigate suffering,ignorance and harmful tendencies in the face of torments.

Once, while still early on the path of spiritual awakening,I was overcome with strong temptation to drive to the Virgin Records store in downtown Vancouver to spend money on music cds.At that time the danger was because I was financially broke without a job yet.I love music and the urge to get new cds of latest releases was playing on my mind so strongly to go get them.I already had a huge collection of cds and vinyl LP records.The desire was so strong, I drove down to Virgin Records and felt like a kid in a candy store.So I went from station to station listening to every music sample that was on display.Not only listening was enough, I was lost in self-control and was picking up every cd that I enjoyed.Before I knew it, I had over 20 pieces of cds in the basket! I remember feeling very elated and excited about going home to listen to each one.I was on my way to the cashier,when I stopped and became aware of what I had in my hand.I watched and observed myself at that moment and came to a honest realization of what I was doing.I was feeding into my desires.I thought I could walk out of the store with perhaps two cds by then,but as I slowly returned each cd to its respective counter,I walked out of the store empty-handed.I felt good about my strength,the courage to let go,to be aware of what I was about to do and the harmful consequences that would arise….I would be depleting wasteful money on my already almost empty bank account.The relieve that I had from pausing to watch myself and becoming aware of consequences brought on peace instead of more mental and emotional chaos.

It is not to say that all afflictions will be eradicated in a jiffy,with constant practice of observing, watching the self,the mind and its intentions, we can come to slowly remove unnecessary sufferings.Every single time we think we have failed or have lost control and gave in to any affliction, we can practice self-compassion and tenderness for our faults and not be punitive or harsh towards ourselves.In time,healing takes place,when we make every effort to start again.Slowly the afflictive energy loses its grip and strength upon the self!

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Be in the Company of the Heart

Very often we forget that we have a Wise,Loving,Courageous,Creative and Joyful Heart to enjoy silent company with.We tend to give so much attention to everything outside of ourselves.

We go about our lives mostly listening and living up to the voices that spread beliefs,ideologies,opinions,fear,judgements,criticism and cynicism, terror,divisiveness,expectations,power and control and false notions of achieving lasting happiness and pleasures.

The mind wavers with confusions,uncertainties and agitation,restlessness,anguish,torments,anxieties….then we wonder why we are so disturbed and unhappy again and again eventhough we may have had a good time doing something pleasurable or enjoyable.

The mind must be calmed and stilled in order for the Heart to be fully opened to act in joyful,peaceful,loving engagements…

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To Begin the Brave Unknown

To Begin the Brave UnknownIn order for true spiritual growth to be effective and be inculcated,the self must be onward and forward with sincere, fearless and selfless actions and practises to living out,facing and experiencing all manner of life’s lessons as it arises without putting barriers, limitations and conditions on all phenomenon, so that the wise heart can exercise true understanding and knowledge.As I stood at the door of the church of St.Paul’s Richmond BC, in 1998,like a beggar begging for mercy and forgiveness, I knew within the depths of my heart I was ready and willing to put aside all my worldly egoic selfish habituated beliefs of all sorts in order to open my mind and heart to learn the ways of healing.I was willing to be opened to a new life and new birth to anything that might help me end unnecessary suffering. Although I did not know what or how am I to proceed along this new route,the main thing was taking the first step to be humbled and with sincere and right intention of letting go of all false beliefs and the need to hold and control things that have already gone out of control…I surrendered and took courage to allow myself to walk thru the door of the unknown……………….

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