What are we willing to let go?

When we surrender arrogance….we become humble,gentle and flexible(as not in humiliation),
when we surrender hatred….we switch on the Light Within,
when we surrender selfishness…..we become selfless(caring and understanding),
when we surrender unkindness…we share benevolence and goodness
when we subdue anger/aggression…we find peace!
When we calm the restless mind(thru mindful breathing and meditation)….the Heart takes over to Love with no conditions…
when we can recognize our fears,limitations and inner pains…..we can act with courage,faith,trust and vigour to warrant healing and transformation…

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Walking Peacefully in the face of violence

There was a special time,a time when my friend Doug and I walked with our hearts on the streets of ‘dangerous’ Downtown East side Vancouver,British Columbia,Canada,spiritually befriending the downtrodden,outcasts of society,prostitutes and drug addicts.I never felt threatened or unsafe or repulsed by the ‘dark activities’going on in that area.Who am I to judge or think that I was a ‘hero’trying to save them.NO! I was not there trying to play saviour or speak of a God or spread religiosity to try to convert them.
I was in fact there to learn from them,to be challenged in real-life learning lessons ……to break my heart open to the terrorizing,painful suffering that I relate with them in a different scenario.Humility was the biggest lesson I had to cherish as it was not easy sometimes to be hurled with obscenities and with their rough,crude and toughened mannerisms.I learned to love sincerely, to hold them, to accept them in whatever state they were in,to laugh and cry and share with them and kiss them and wipe away their tears,allow their tears to flow on my jacket/shirt.Most of them are infected with the Aids/Hiv virus and were scarred with sores and visible infected marks on their bodies.It could be very unsightly to look at,I never saw it as a hindrance to be with them.To look into their eyes and tell them that they are loved and not to be afraid.It was a joyful,fulfilling time when they would run and rush forward to be hugged and held and smiled at,there was a tiny one(Doug and I would call her little Ashu) who simply liked jumping on my back like a little monkey.

There were also disheartening times when they would shun,deny and reject any form of kindly contact.

Despite the subtle chaotic,harmful violence being visibly witnessed through the self inflicted suffering these people are causing to themselves(by way of openly shooting up,overdosing,dealing in drugs,watching the johns and ladies engaging in bargaining for sexual favours,yelling and screaming profanities,the frequent sounds of screeching,deafening ambulance/police sirens) ;I walked through the streets in peaceful and loving expression not of or for their activities but in compassion for their pain and ignorant/wasteful suffering.From witnessing these painful states, I was gaining access into my own self-created and unnecessary sufferings and vowed to purify myself of misery.Suffering helps us to look into suffering and then its up to us to want healing for it.

Once Doug,who remains a dear friend till today,invited his friend a priest(Fr.River) from Seattle,USA to join us in walking on the streets.While walking Fr.River suggested that we have a celebration of Mass right there out on the streets.Both Doug and I were joyous at the idea!So we stopped in front of a McDonald’s fast food joint and bought whatever we could to use,bread for communion host,probably pop in paper cups as wine and we spread paper napkins on the ‘dirty’floor.We sat on the floor in peaceful reverence for that sacred ceremony while chaos was going on right there around us.We gently invited the people on the streets to come join in if they liked to.To our surprise,some did respectfully sit with us to celebrate that lovely,lovely time of meaningful celebration of love on the streets.Fr.River showed courage,sincere fearlessness flexibility,spontaneity,humility,kindness and a true healing/sharing and peaceful spirit in the face of subtle violence and confusion.

As I look at this experience, I envision what the historical Jesus Christ would have done in his time and era as he was going about teaching, sharing and projecting peacefulness in the time of hatred,strife and anger over the Roman rule of his country Jerusalem.Despite violence and plotting against the Romans(Romans against the Jews and vice versa), Jesus taught compassion,charity, kindness,forgiveness and peaceful resolutions…..he taught only to look Within the Self to find the ‘Kingdom of Heaven in there’He did not bother with the chaos going on nor did he encourage anger and hatred.He invited people to find healing within themselves.
So what can we learn from this……do we get influenced by the turmoil going on in the present day world or do we find peace and love and compassion to offer to the pain of the world?

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The Power of Amazing Grace

In that moment of grace,it feels like the door of ‘heaven’ opens up to allow us a glimpse of that sacredness,goodness within ourselves.It is a time when we are actually touching the inner chamber of the heart(soul,spirit,God,etc…)This is what is meant by the grace-filled moment.It is when we do not run away from the ‘mystical call’ either through the profundity of intense pain or bliss but instead look directly into its compelling mysterious force which could make us act spontaneously with tenderness/softness/gentleness and humility.We surrender to the power of letting go(relinquishing sense of control),allowing what is to be will be and usually act with and in kindness to do something benevolent and beneficial for spiritual evolution(changes) and human betterment(for self and others).This is truly the most beautiful experience on the beginning stage in the journey to find our True Self!

In humility we might fall to our knees simply by hearing a word such as ‘love’,peace’,’kindness’,’God’and be overwhelmed with gratitude.In these moments,the barriers that we have been so conditioned to barricade the heart with might start its shattering process to allow the heart to break completely open and be purified!
We are all being called quietly within,not one human being will be exempted or deprived of this moment of Grace.

In my experience of Grace, I was crying on the plane non-stop during the very long flight from Jeddah,Saudi Arabia back home to Vancouver,Canada (Novemeber 1998) after an incomplete nursing work assignment contract.I was feeling like a failure,worthless and broken,lost in life.Yet I felt a sense of sacred surrendering overcoming me,letting go to the goodness, the humility,the whatever I had to face,to face it with courage and purposeful strength.I could feel my heart breaking,tearing apart immensely which I believed the shattering process of the walls of my heart beginning to crumble down warranting a complete fearless opening to face myself, my True innate Self(flaws and beauty).

It is the power of Grace that gives us the humble strength and courage to lead us home inward into ourselves,to see the truth that for a long time we had been blinded by and to be found in the wisdom to understand how lost we were in the illusory world.

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Humility

“Humility is a sublime virtue
It can bend before the mighty wind
yet arise with courage.
it can bow before a powerful sovereign,
yet remain his equal.
It can be intimidated by the unjust,
yet not be humiliated.
It can be gentle before injury
yet have the strength to forgive.
humility brings the antidote to pride and arrogance and allows the openness to learn and accept!”

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Preview of To Resurrect the True Self

Here is a preview and glimpse of having an understanding into what this heartfelt spiritually surrendered book might be about.Thank you for your time and support.Feel free to share if you like.

Watching Ourselves

We can be creators of loving-kindness,benevolence,respect,truth,selflessness and understanding.
We can choose to destroy selfishness,unkindness,resentments,anger,disrecpect and greed.
We can restore harmony into our lives and the lives of others

All we need is the tool of practicing Self-Awareness!
It is so easy,wherever we are, whomever we are with,however we are, in whatever we are doing,right here and now…..we can practice watching ourselves,being mindful and aware.

One small random act of kindness can help encourage and disseminate the uplifting of Human Consciousness which brings spiritual healing and courage.Fear on the other hand limits and traps us in a realm of meaninglessness.

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Finding Myself

When I stood outside the door of the church of Saint Paul’s Richmond,November 1998 after coming back from Saudi Arabia, I knew within the depths of my soul I was ready and willing to put aside all my worldly egoistic selfish habituated lifestyle of all sorts in order to open my mind and heart to learn the ways of healing,new life and new birth, to anything that might help me end suffering.Although,I did not know what or how am I to proceed along this new path…..the main thing was taking the first step to be humbled and with the sincerity and right intention of surrendering to the unknown with courage! Then began the listening to the ‘inner call’ in sitting quietly in the empty church.At first I did not know what I was truly doing but it seemed so peaceful and sacred…..On a daily basis without fail,I was there in the empty church sitting with my heart full of pain and suffering that I was becoming more fully aware of. What was I searching for,what was I asking for,what did I find by sitting quietly?………………………………I found Myself and all the treasures Within.I try to be of help and wish to share those gems through my book. https://www.celestehoedenauthor.com

Meaningful Time Alone

Being alone,the significance of taking time to quiet ourselves,time to reflect,renew and make changes…to not be afraid of witnessing our inner selves.We can start this moment by doing however little where we are……we can strive to make time in the later part of the night when all are asleep or getting up early on in the morning or any ‘down/break’ time during the day to sit and reflect/breathe in and out/learn to meditate/pray/say mantras,visualize (all in the knowing to end unnecessary sufferings and finding peace of mind) a few minutes, no need to be hard on ourselves….always flexible and easy to simply be.By starting out this way, we can learn to be aware and find some comfort to retreat to in difficult moments.Whatever we may be doing,we can practice the awareness of bringing gentleness and kindness towards ourselves and to others…..remembering to always be flexible with ourselves is a factor so we wont ‘break’when things don’t go as we expect or that we don’t expect too much of ourselves and others…………