Forgiving Power

In order to facilitate inner forgiveness for ourselves

or toward others, we need the strength and courage to

be humble, to allow the heart’s capacity to fully open,

and to bring down all barriers that had blocked the

heart from tenderizing, from loving, and from being

charitable. Humility aids the heart to soften, to be

pliable, to yield toward gentleness, and to be open to

learn from past mistakes.

In December 1998, while still in the beginning

stage of my journey of spiritual revelations, I used to

occasionally spend time with Sister Marilyn of the Grey

Nun Congregation. One time, I poured out some of my

past transgressions to her. She then asked me straight on

if I was willing to put down the heavy load that I was

carrying. Without hesitation, I said a firm “YES.” She

then asked if I would like to make a personal confession

with her friend, a monsignor at the chancery office of

the Holy Rosary Cathedral in Vancouver. I humbly and

wholeheartedly agreed.

I remembered the day, it was

sometime in late December 1998, and I must have spent

more than an hour in confession with Monsignor Smith.

It was to be my last Catholic rite of confession. I was

crying throughout the confessional time with heartfelt

shame and deep remorse for my past actions. Monsignor

was very empathetic and comforting toward me. He

pointed to a framed picture on the wall depicting a

scene showing Jesus throwing a life-saving buoy to a

drowning man in a perilous sea. I remembered feeling

free and relieved upon looking at the picture; it was a

knowing inside of me that was saying, “I am turning

my back toward the past and starting anew.” I walked

out of his office and into the Vancouver December rain.

I felt washed clean and joyful, and the peace gave me

the courage to say, “I want to make amends and never

to be that same person again.”

~~~~ excerpt from my book “To Resurrect the True Self”,page 168-169 ~~~~

Author of ‘To Resurrect the True Self’