Applying mindfullness and being aware of all that goes on within our being,in our thoughts,in our feelings, in our speech and in our actions is truly being vigilant and wise …. it is like carrying a torchlight/flashlight while walking along a dark path instead of trying to be foolishly heroic to think its safe to walk in darkness without a light……………
Resurrection of the Self
To resurrect means to bring back something or someone from the dead.In the spiritual sense,it means to raise the the ignorant(dormant/dead) consciousness into a higher level of conscience,therefore raising awareness!
After the death of the ego-centered self,there comes an arising……
A new consciousness,an awakened state of heightened awareness.The state of ‘waking up’to the truth.
In this state there is the feeling of losing everything,being nothing,being no-one,yet it feels at the same time like having everything and being everything…..the Oneness and totality of existence is experienced.The body,mind and soul have integrated to become One…..there is no fragmentation of thinking and feeling,the mind has been quelled and the heart has regained its purified status and capability of loving without conditions and limitations….it has become Infinite,Eternal…..an end to samsaric phenomenon(a continuous recycling of birth and death).
This is the meditation of Self awakening………..to be reborn….as Jesus says..”unless anyone be born again,he cannot enter the kingdom of Heaven”.Here Jesus talks about being born in the Spirit…..in today’s version,its about transformation of the self,a new growth,a shift of consciousness ,a renewed life,death to the old habituated ways of life/living and deluded perceptions.Death to the old-self has occured in resurrection of consciousness.
In the dying process,it has emptied and purified itself of all afflictive states……its original innate states of love and wisdom are restored!
Like a child being born into the light after being in darkness in its mother’s womb for all those months………..
Contemplate a child at play….the purity of heart at the way it runs and plays carefree and unburdened,the innocence of the child as it looks at everything in awe and wonder,it laughs and giggles when it sees a butterfly flitting by…it is not afraid to simply be,to trust,to know that it is being taken care of and guarded.It carries no worries or anxieties over what to eat or where to sleep……….
So too is the new Self,is child-like(trusting) and pure of heart(sincere) in all endeavours.Like a snake that has undergone the painful process of shedding its old worn out skin,it is triumphant to show the new one.
After its rebirth, the new Self will only live in the Present…it has died to the past and knows that the future is unpredictable,uncertain and unknown……..everything is impermanent……its status is in the constant Now!
The new Self does not partake in the influences and chaos of the world,it understands and feels compassion towards it…as Jesus said…..”be in this world but not of it”…………………
The tomb is empty…….do not look for the old self there…it has Risen(transcended)…it is free!
Each and every human being carries within us the Divine masterpiece, a collage of kindness, tenderness, mercy,forgiveness,joyfulness,peacefulness and love………….so why do we need to compete, be envious and selfish,to be fooled by the false glitters of the world,to hold grudges/aversions and animosity,why are we against one another,why are we aggravated by the slightest annoyance of each other….when we are filled with treasures that is compared to the kingdom of Heaven that even sovereigns cannot contain within their palaces……why then we not want to undertake this great task of uncovering/discovering,displaying these innate riches within the self?
Try not to judge yourself or be critical of anything you say or do or think.
Sometimes, we might find ourselves saying mentally to ourselves upon arising in the morning , “oh another lousy day,”or”I am sick and tired of the same old thing”or”I hate this life”……….
Many times during the day, we might catch ourselves ruminating negatively …..pause! and tune in and start becoming aware of(in other words start a scan of the body and thoughts)……. where am I now, who am I, what am I feeling/doing,there is a purpose for all of this……try and change the negative tones into purposeful ones……….and with constant practise,go deeper into spiritually beneficial and meaningful ones that help yourself and others grow…………
When we are fearful to come face to face,feel and experience our pains,sufferings,emotional/mental/psychological turmoils fully and deeply, all we do is burying them deeper and deeper…..we cannot be free of encumberances.we self imprison ourselves to a life of unhappiness and disharmony,confusion,inability to understand and relate and to experience the nobility/sanctity of compassion and joy….how would we be understanding,respectful and be of help and support for another?
When we stop to deal with whatever pain that we undergo one at a time,we can start facing realities,we can start facing the truth of our human conditions,we will come to know our human nature……..we can learn to be tender human beings,kindly and loving(inherent within us).We can therefore,learn to be adept to grow in heartfelt wisdom and not be afraid at handling and facing all other situations and circumstances as they arise……..we can therefore truly enjoy our lives fully and authentically…….
Can we for a minute imagine ourselves in the time of the Buddha or Jesus or the Prophet Mohammed,some thousands of years ago……what would we do for dealing with our everyday anxieties/worries…..can we imagine how we will be…….Who we are?who are we truly…..if we could ask ourselves this question!
Yes the truth is the hardest thing to face, it daunts and torments but once we brace ourselves to confront it head on,the fear dissipates……..we can free ourselves from chaos and witness our noble valor and inner vitality……even the vilest prisoner can free himself/herself from suffering by facing the truth of themselves….and find the freedom and peace and joy while still imprisoned.We need to empower ourselves in the truth rather give away our power to illusory beliefs and ideologies and fantasies that does nothing to help us heal and become humane, peaceful, loving,kind and beneficial to the growth of others……………
“and the truth shall set you free”~~~~~Jesus
Being light-hearted on this human journey…………..
They say laughter is the best medicine……would we,could we have a little laugh/smile at ourselves sometime?
Along the path of life we tend to get serious about life’s burdens and varied hardships.We push ourselves as hard as we can to make life look seemingly tolerable and manageable….yet in truth we know of the disturbances/uneasiness going on within the being.
So some of us are clever to hide behind a false facade…..we learn to protect our identity….so we portray ourselves as funny, full of humour,making everything into a joke or fun.Can we really do that all the time with everything and with everyone?When we try to please others to appear like we are happy and wanting to project that ‘happiness’ towards them,are we looking to be liked and popular and validated……?
Can that wanting to be liked,’loved’ be a sort of addictive inclination?There is also that tendency to poke fun at others, making fun at the vulnerability and’timidity’of others…..laughing at others in order to put them down and to derive selfish satisfaction for ourselves.
But then on the inner side of that funny facade there is a hardness, a toughness, a rigidity that cannot soften ….the cycle goes round and round in endless circle that cannot be broken….so they handle themselves callously with dealing in difficult and challenging situations almost to the point with a negligent,’devil may care’ attitude.
It is not to say that we cannot be funny or have humour in our lives or on the other hand that we must be always serious with everything we do in life…..that seriousness too will become unbearably hard on our psyche,almost fanatical,it will also be hard
for others to tolerate being close to us….
We are not on our journey in life to wear masks(pretenses) especially not the masks of comedy and tragedy.We are not here to please others by being a comedienne,neither are we to bring others down with our unhappiness.There is nothing wrong with having a little entertainment to make us smile and uplifted but not at the expense of others or ourselves being hurt by it.
However as we journey on the human road, no matter what,whether we believe/follow a religion or deemed to call ourselves atheists/agnostic we are on a spiritual quest….to opening our hearts to love,to be human, to be compassionate and relate to the joys and sufferings of each other,helping growth towards goodness.
While we are on this earthly travels, we can practise having a lightness of being towards ourselves…seeing ourselves with a clear honesty,seeing our flaws and mistakes, foolishness and guilts…..then instead of being hardened,critical and judgemental by our faults,we can have a little humour with ourselves to bring tenderness to that difficult part,so we can get thru it and hold ourselves in courage and spiritual valor!Practising this light-heartedness prevents us from running away from our true self,so we can stand bravely and face it with some self humour.Sometimes it is not easy to find that humour and sometimes it comes so naturally to laugh or smile at oneself when looking into our idiosyncrasies.
In my own self searching walk within myself…….I saw so many of my failed endeavours,fearfulness, foolish reveries, terrible mistakes, faults, regrets and painful memories filled with guilts and shame,…..then sometimes, automatically a smile would surface from within and sometimes I would laugh heartily to see my own past foolishness.It is as though,I was looking at somebody else,not me, could I have been capable of such awful things?It is as though everything was becoming lighter because of my courage to look into them,to face them and come to know them.
By smiling and laughing at oneself ,the heart lightens,it acts like a soft mattress so the hardknocks of facing the truths are buffered.Smiling and laughing at one’s own self also helps create simplicity and self playfulness to be able to withstand the hard realities of life,it helps to not make life so grave and grim.
Laughing and smiling at oneself as well with others along the spiritual path is a way of also having simplistic pleasure and enjoyment so that the continuing journey is not one of doom and gloom and it helps with the painting of a beautiful picture of oneself to notice that we can smile and show sincere happiness when facing harsh truths….it then becomes the practising of opening to inner joy……….and that joy will extend outwards……..I like laughing heartily and smiling amusingly………it comes from the surrendered simplicity and joy of my heart!
Are we ready for healing……
When we are sincere, ready and willing…….when we free ourselves to be open minded and to put down our own desire to control and think we already know everything and let go of holding on to our habituated ideas and notions about our lives….even a simple positive word such as ‘love’,’kind’,’forgive’,’tenderness’,’peace’,etc……can bring us to our knees to surrender to be inwardly touched/moved to create a space for meaningful change and spiritual growth and betterment…………………………
On the other hand,no amount of religious practises and promoting all sorts of pious projections ,beliefs,acts and displays of pretentious goodness, and piety will open the door of our hearts for true healing, compassion and wisdom for the absolute truth if the self remains complacent, fettered to fears and still wants to cling to mere egoic ideologies of self and others.
In order for true spiritual growth to be effective and be inculcated,the self must be onward and forward with sincere, fearless and selfless actions and practises to living out,facing and experiencing all manner of life’s lessons as it arises without putting barriers, limitations and conditions on all phenomenon, in order for wise heart to exercise true understanding and knowledge.
When I stood at the door of the church some 21 years ago, I knew within the depths of my heart I was ready and willing to put aside all my worldly egoic selfish habituated beliefs of all sorts in order to open my mind and heart to learn the ways of healing,new life and new birth to anything that might help me end suffering ……………….although I did not know what or how am I to proceed along this new route…..the main thing was taking the first step to be humbled and with the sincere and right intention of letting go of all false beliefs and the need to hold and control things that have already gone out of control…………….I surrendered and took courage to allow myself to walk thru the door of the unknown……………….