Let not guilts , shames and fears keep our hearts locked and imprisoned in pain and suffering.
We don’t have to hang onto to past mistakes, regrets, abuses,grief/traumatic experiences,bad memories and the ‘what ifs’,’why didnt I’,’why did I’sentiments.
There is no reason to keep our afflictions buried within us and allowing our lives to be lived in shallowness and limitations of a greater purpose to life for ourselves and others.
All enlightened beings and spiritual teachers of past and present had to do the same, to purge themselves of toxic/poisonous afflictive states and renew and transform and allow their true light of love to shine forth.
All of them showed compassion and understanding of their own suffering and that of others and have been and are still passing on the knowledge of the truth of the existence of suffering and the ways out of it so that others might be wise enough to follow through the same and become ambassadors of peace and healing.
There is enough of unhappiness,silent and active aggression,animosity and joylessness hovering around wherever we are….perhaps we cannot see that truth as we are too busy into our own distractions and burdens.However, there might be some people who are using outwardly fun, comic and jovial antics as cover-up for their inner discontent.Its not to say that we cannot have healthy enjoyments, fun, recreation and relaxation which might help uplift the weary spirit…..family/alone time in nature by the beach,drives/outings,museums,cooking/baking,reading,music,celebrations,etc.
All the same most of us are in denial and can become defensive when speaking of suffering/unhappiness….we can refuse to believe or to acknowledge our inner discord and disharmony as we might surfacely portray ourselves as ‘healthy’, ‘wealthy’,’wise’(educated),religious practising,having done nothing wrong criminally,abiding the laws of the land,etc.etc……yet deep within, there is a dark cloud of secrecy and feeling ‘impure’,uncleaned and unloved,that feeling of nothing is enough/good/right………
In my own experience……. November 1998,after coming back from Saudi Arabia,landing in Vancouver,Canada, I immediately felt a terrible heartache where I felt like ‘dying’,a feeling like I was a criminal who was hiding the biggest ‘black heart’ within myself….I felt spiritually thirsty and in need of tremendous amount of soul food and comfort,it felt like a deadly desperation to bring nourishment to my soul….November 17th 1998,as I remember driving myself to St. Paul’s church seeking for something to quench my parched being,I stood outside the church door feeling like a criminal and literally said to myself….”I am turning myself in,help me!” That was the beginning of a long beautiful spiritual journey of delving/meditating into the deepest recess of my being courageously facing painful and ineffable truths,acknowledging and forgiving and letting go of my life’s worth of transgressions…….as well as looking into the true face of beauty of my Inner Self….face to face with the treasures of Heaven!,there I found love and joy and truth resided innately waiting to be discovered by the true seeker…………
Like everyone else, I was clamouring for love outside of myself until I found it Within myself……….within each being lies this treasure of heaven(Love/God/Truth/Light/Universal consciouness/Atman/Brahman/Allah/Buddha or Christ consciousness/Divinity etc.).Each and every single human being has the highest potential to touch and be open to this sacred space Within if we are sincere and courageous to take a ride into ourselves!While we are still yet to open ourselves to the inward journey, we can practise being mindful and being aware of our thoughts, actions, speech and intentions in order to have some level of comfort, of peace, understanding, respect and care towards ourselves and for others
One of the ways I had to practise while on the journey inwards is develop what the Buddhist calls Loving-Kindness meditation….to develop the ability to love,to be compassionate,to be kind to ourselves, to our loved ones, friends, strangers,enemies and the world……….
I share this with you to help you on your journey ….if you can find time, make a little effort, be sincere and dedicated whenever you can,allow yourself to simply be,no need to be hard on yourself….everything takes time,there is no easy way out for true healing and peace to descend upon us!
This is the youtube link on loving kindness meditation,easy to follow and understand.