“no one lights a lamp and hides it under a bed,instead,he puts it on a stand,so that anyone who comes in can see the light”~~~~~~~~~~~Jesus
Sometime in July of 2016, I first started to be inspired, courageous and motivated to write and pour my inner revealing story of how a human being can be pulled from the wreckage of self destruction and misery into one of radical full recovery into spiritual wholeness.I want and l need to share the compassionate human experience as how I journeyed from suffering into self discovery.I write not from read texts of books or others’ experiences,I write from my simplistic heart,an urging within myself that needs to share and make known the spiritual awareness of daily life and living.
I write with no scholarly antics but from my own personal empirical transformative spiritual journey delving into self inquiry, spiritual disciplines and practices and devoted meditative sittings/walkings.I write from the lessons and insights I had learned,understood through the hours spent in medtitation and the personal experiences that I had encountered while traversing the human realm trying to undo and change from mistakes of the past.
I write not to be liked or disliked, neither to be recognised or be known.My writing is simply put….a sharing of my insights and experiences as I walked thru the healing journey.It is not meant to say that I know everything or ‘holier than thou’ or different. I am but only human who dared take up my cross(taking responsibilities for my own actions/mistakes),following a spiritual path and facing its consequences(paying the price for unnecessary sufferings)and extricating myself from its grip……….and being free from the past or the future,to be as I am in the Now…………….
It is as Jesus says,when we light a candle/lamp,we put it out,for others to see, so that others may be in need of a spark of brightness to see ahead, so that others may have hope that the fear of darkness is not permanent.Just as a lighthouse is built so that ships would not crash on the rocks and be doomed.
I went through an intense spiritual awakening 20 years ago in 1998 while on a 1 year working contract as an emergency room registered nurse in Saudi Arabia.I came back to British Columbia,Canada only after 3 months.What I saw and witnessed over in Saudi working as an RN was very traumatic to me.I came back home to Canada to never be the same person as I was before I left for Saudi.When I came back home the calling for a deeper spiritual and meditative life opened at a fast pace and I faced many challenges,trials and going through various transformation processes.
I write here for the only purpose and intention is to share the human spiritual experiences and journey from one of worldly which I had been living,frivolous,carefree,and ignorant of all the sufferings I endured wastefully and needlessly…….and now to a simple,frugal,contented and peaceful way of living…………..
I had no particular personal spiritual teacher nor am I affliated to any one traditional religious teaching,though I was born into a Catholic family and practised Catholicism most of my life.
While opening up to my inner self journey…….I followed dedicatedly to mainly Buddhist philosophy and teachings.My teachers were many through the various books and religious traditions I read.Some of my favourite teachers were Pema Chodron,Jack Kornfield,Ajahn Chah and Ajahn Brahm.Paramahansa Yogananda ,Echkart Tolle and many others.
Sometime in 2007,I had an exhilarating priviledge of sitting with Echkart Tolle,world renowned spiritual teacher and author of the world famous book …’The Power of Now’.It was wonderful being in the presence of this lovely man and sharing our spiritual experiences in that private sitting.It was a truly blessed time as he acknowledged my spiritual progress as I needed endorsement for my continuing growth in spirit.
My true teachers were the very people I was close to,walked and worked and lived in daily life,there were difficult ones, caring ones,soft and hard hearted ones,generous and selfish ones,foolish and insensitive ones,there were many who help teach me lessons I needed to pass through.I did not reject anyone of them,some of them yes, I feared more than others but still I had to learn lessons from them…… patience, humility,courage, kindness,the chance to learn charity and generosity,fortitude,trust,the power to forgive,and the strength to let go.
Most of all, I learned how to subdue my uncontrollable temper which those close to me can attest to,I also had to admit to unhealthy addictions that only caused unecessary sufferings to myself and others,which I had to learn how to understand from where its destructive roots arised and do away with all of them.
I learned that in life, one cannot escape any given situation of happiness or unhappiness,beautiful or ugly but to face everything and surrender to whatever is present,things will unfold and we will be given a renewed chance for us to work with in order to benefit ourselves and others.
In other words, Life itself is our true teacher…….we accept and embrace all aspects of life,good or bad,there is no all good or all bad.We allow the mystery of uncertainties and the unknown open us up to the truth of our very human existence.Healing is a long process we have to go through life with and every situation,every tragedy,every joy and every person is our teacher to help mold,inspire and pave the way for a Higher Sublime purpose.
The spiritual journey is not about being holy, pious,religious or saintly, but includes everything we experience in our daily lives,where we become aware of the lessons we learn from each one and grow into compassionate human beings acknowledging our sufferings/pains and joys/happiness and relating back the same to others.It encompasses everyone we meet and to reject no one we encounter in our daily life.It includes people dear and loved,acquaintances,strangers,difficult people and so called enemies(each of these people will hold a spiritual lesson to learn from).The spiritual experience is not about picking or choosing each person or life situation as we like but facing every one and everything that opens up to us and being present(aware) to see what we can do and learn from each and the freedom to choose how we grow or not grow from it!
We are all on this human journey(no one is left out) to help each other grow in spirit and help each other to put an end to pain and suffering and live in harmony wherever we are………….
Whatever I may have written or still to write,may resonate or sit true with some,others may have doubts or indifference.I write in the hope that someone or people may benefit or relate or sit true by my sharings.
I wish only for the highest good in everyone.